As soon as he cuts the engine, he asks me to wait here for a second.
I did. We sat in silence for a while. It seemed like lifetimes have passed between us.
“Is this the last time I’m going to see you?”
I turned to his expression. It was almost emotionless. Still as a statue. I couldn’t believe he asked me. Maybe I was too alluded than I should have been.
“Do you want it to be?” I asked him softly.
“Hell no.” He responded. He turned my head to match his face and glided his fingers under my chin for me to kiss him. I can’t lie. It freaked me out. His movements were so in sync with all my nerves. Like he predicted the way it would electrify me entirely. That fueled me even more.
I couldn’t help but to bring myself more into his grasp. We were all over each other now. I took control and straddled him against his seat. He had lead the driver seat all the way so I had enough room to close any necessary gaps. We collided in such a different way. This way felt home. Felt like where I needed to stay. His fingers went up my sweaters and around my breast squeezing them. It was just the tease I needed to let out a little moan. His ears perked up and he smiled slightly like he discovered a dirty secret. He was learning my body. I had to give him credit for paying this close attention. This is the first time we ever connected like this. Physically I mean. We went on a few dates together and then we set boundaries between the both of us. We had to do it before things got further. The attraction the first time was intoxicating. I wished he ripped my clothes off right where he stood. My body kept calling for him and I didn’t want him to answer. Not just yet. I had to wait it out. For my own sanity. I had to resist the urge of cupping his face….caressing his shoulders….licking his neck. No, it was far from my mind. That was well… until tonight.
“Come inside.” I said to him mid-breath. His face looked up before his eyes did. And then he backed up a little to get a good look at my face. His expression… it was hungry. Just like mine.
“I probably shouldn’t….” He trailed off. “But the way you are on me right now, it’s pretty hard to say no.”
“So don’t say it,” I whispered as I inched closer and closer to his mouth. I licked his bottom lip with my tongue before nibbling it down. He groaned a little before I pulled away. “Don’t think right now. Do what feels right.”
He nudges his head over to the passenger seat, signaling me to get off of him. A little shocked, but I did anyways. Then he was out his seat and slammed the car door. My state was unmovable. I did not know why I feared him saying no. Like it actually bothered me if he did. I haven’t gotten bothered by a guy in ages. I was admiring a lot of new developments between him and me.
My car door opened and it’s him leaning against the passenger door, blocking me to exit.
“Come on, before I change my mind.”
Once I was out of the car, he clicked his Challenger before he hung his arm over my shoulder. He chuckled before saying “Man if it’s gonna be like this with you all the time, Imma be in trouble a lot.”
I grinned devilishly before clicking my apartment door opened. It was dark. Good. I knew my roommate was home but I didn’t want to be bothered with introducing him to her. Not that I was trying to hide him. Or maybe I was. Maybe I wanted him to myself just for the night. It’s what I been craving since I laid eyes on him.
When we reach my room, he looks around. He sits on the edge of my dresser. “Damn. This room is way better than mine. I should’ve known your artistic ass would go all out.”
“Aye, don’t hate on what I create. You’re blessed you got someone that can liven up that frat room of yours.”
He blew a raspberry. “Now I know you got jokes. My room is no where near a frat house. I’m too old for any of that. It’s just …. A little modern. Nothing like this.” He started walking around at the different corners of each room. To Each element. Air. Water. Earth. Fire. “How long it take you?”
I shrugged and plopped on my bed, kicking off my Jordans. “A few months. I was determined, though.”
“You’re the first outsider though.”
“What? You saying not even your friends?”
He sighed and gets even closer to me. “I think you mad selective on energy. I ain’t mad at that. I’m the same, to be honest.”
“I just want the right people in my space. And lately… that hasn’t been easy,” I said.
He comes over to the bed and placed his hands on each of my thighs, leaning down. I sit a little to meet his gaze. “Well, now you have.”
I scrunch my nostrils. “Yeah, maybe.”
“I know you. You wouldn’t have invited me in here if you thought otherwise.”
I lift my shoulders. “Perhaps.” He falls between my legs like his gave out. He rests his head on one of my thighs as he kneeled down. I chuckled. “Already tired?”
“No. You’re just very warm,” he lied. But I see him yawning a little as he goes on and makes my legs his own personal pillows.
“Come on,” I caressed his head gently. “I’m not going to allow you to sleep on the floor, you know ?”
His head snaps up like he got a jolt of adrenaline. He looks at me until a grin forms creepily. “I don’t think you have the kind of restraint.”
“Have you met me? My whole life has been a restraint.”
“Alright, Jem. Ill bite. Scoot over then.” He pulls himself up and used his arms to push my body a little further before he scoops me around after plopping on the bed. It made a screeching noise.
“Damn, X. Not so loud. I have neighbors.” I joked. “And my roommate isn’t that far.” Our bodies were wrapped so tight, I felt his chest rise and fall. He was longer than my bed, but made it work when he angled us diagonally from the foot of it. He laid on his back. I laid on my side. My thighs were swallowing his legs. But he didn’t mind it. He even gripped one of my legs across him as he used one hand to caress my skin back and forth.
“Let em hear. I don’t care.” His voice grew sleepy. There was a yawn after that.
I kissed his cheek but he turned into me to meet my lips. We were kissing for awhile. It felt different than before. This one felt cozy. Warm like a fireplace fire. Somehow when his body shielded me off, he broke the kiss.
“We should stop,” He looks down at me as I look directly in his eyes. I saw his face in a dim lighting, but there was an interesting expression he was making. I couldn’t tease him any more. I wanted more than I realized. My hands go sliding down to his dick as I gripped it softly. He growled at me. I chuckled. “Do you have any idea what you just started?”
His moves were quick as he flipped us over and used his hands to grip my ass tightly. My mouth found his again. I couldn’t get enough of kissing him. It was like my kryptonite. His lips were so soft against mine. His mouth was like the perfect fit. I didn’t want anything more than to shove my tongue into it. So I did. Little by little, he sucked on mine and my eyes rolled back from the pleasure it brought. I had forgotten how amazing it all felt. He was reawakening everything in my body tonight. Everything I left dormant.
He wasted no time to find my sweater and pull it off of me. Underneath was a satin brown Fenty set I just bought. I was so glad I went shopping before this night. My breasts were almost spilling out of them though. He lifts up closer to bury his face in them. I moaned off impact…loudly.
“You gonna have to be quiet for me, mama. I promise, Imma take care of you.”
“What happened to “let them hear?’” I joked.
“Nah, I’m selfish.” His lips grazed my chest and I shivered. “Means I want to be the only one hearing you tonight. Can you handle that?” He grips my ass once more. I just nod rapidly. Afraid if I gave a verbal command, the way I feel would be more obvious. “Good cause it’ll be an inscrutable night for you.”
“Okay, Mr. Two Degrees. Inscrutable huh?” I managed to reply. He used my joke against me as he took the time to thread his fingers around the lace trim of my panties.
“I don’t know about you….” He circled around my clit. I gasped. He slid down to my opening and used one finger to dive in. “But I know I’m done talking.”