#quietlymyself

[scarvoices]

quietlymyself replied to your post “also, considering I figured out the ebook thing- do any of y’all have…...”

is that something where we're gonna do all of them, with this question just being which do we do first? bc i have no preference on what order they're in, i do think we should do all of them though.

Honestly?

I probably will not do all of them.

One thing I’m realizing trying to do the resources for the other?

Is... how many things have to be completely redone.

The masterlist is over 70 items long. and that’s not including where there are subposts (like the But! series or the types of rape) one.

The list of pieces to be worked over to go up on the site?

is only 30.

[ffuturefoundation]

quietlymyself replied to your post “So does anyone have any advice for having to be physically really...”

i have no advice other than saying a general "I'm having a rough day and i need you guys to not touch me

ah yeah that would definitely not be a thing i can do, it was more just how i can cope better with it. if i ask them not to it will just get worse tbh

[ffuturefoundation]

quietlymyself replied to your post: Like who the fuck fantasizes about being murdered...

you’re not bad, and you’re not alone. like the above person said–what happened to you was horrific, and that was how you voted.

quietlymyself replied to your post “I talked about me being a bad person and how i think so because i used...”

i wanted my dad to die. i wanted him to get caught doing something so terrible that he would rot in jail forever, even if i had to die to make that happen. I'm here with you. you're not alone.

yeah i feel that so hard, like if either of them killed me then at least i would get to stop existing and maybe they would get some kind of punishment or someone would acknowledge that i was being hurt!! and it is such a terrible thing to hope for, but i was just in this point in my life where it felt like there was nothing else. and idk my thoughts about it were super fucked up and an as an adult they still make me uncomfortable.

abuse like that when you are so young is just so difficult to cope with i think :( also anyone calling my abuse horrific makes me want to cry rn bc it is like, ahh what happened to me really is bad according to other people? and i just really need that validation at the moment tbh. what they did to me is so normalised in my mind that it feels like it should have been normal

[ffuturefoundation]

quietlymyself replied to your post: [[MOR] okay but also in terms of politics. i...

You never need to apologize about making too many posts on your own blog ������

quietlymyself replied to your post: [[MOR] actually i am a 100% certain writing is...

You aren’t disappointing anybody!!! Your beta reader volunteered to be your beta reader because they love your writing and want to help make it as good as they can! Your writing should be for yourself first, then everyone else. If it makes you happy, keep doing it. If it’s more stressful than enjoyable, you have literally no obligation to keep doing it. I promise.

thank you so much, also for liking all my posts that i made, it just really means a lot to me. it just makes me feel cared about and not so alone yk?

and thank you for saying that i am not obligated to keep writing, bc right now i mostly just feel like i have to constantly. and i am just anxious about it all the time, but i do want to stick with it at least for now. it is hopefully partially just anxiety of doing it again after so many years, and it will get less bad at some point. but idk we will see.

[normal-horoscopes]

caretaker, i offer you a bloodied baby blanket and a shower that can never go hot enough. i offer my twisted scars and the broken split ends of my hair.

A CARDIGAN A FLAG AND A THICK SHOE

[ffuturefoundation]

@quietlymyself replied to your post: [[MOR] i can’t do this, i can’t do this, i can’t...

I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. i can’t make it any better, but I can sit here with you. it will be okay. it’s not okay right now but things will calm down and it will be okay.

<33 the world is so anxiety inducing and scary. i just don’t feel like i am a person who is made for this world. i am  just not strong enough or good enough for it or smth.

i am just so scared and anxious all the time!! to the point that breathing can be struggle. and i think i keep seeing or hearing shit that isn’t there? i mean it is not a big deal and i realise it isn’t there so?? i am probably just making stuff up and not more sick, but it still sucks and i am just so so scared and anxious

[ffuturefoundation]

@quietlymyself I’m sorry you’re dealing with this too rn :( Sending lots of love your way ❤❤❤

[ffuturefoundation]

quietlymyself replied to your post “Idk I’m just one tiny and vulnerable person who feels too strongly....”

saaaame! my cynicism of the world is part of what inspires me to be kind

quietlymyself replied to your post “Idk today has been a weird day. But then every day always is. I’ve...”

❤️❤️❤️ i know i haven't been around lately but i care about u and I'm sorry that ppl are shitty ��

cynicism is just the strongest motivator! it is completely okay that you haven’t been around lately though, that is always fine. thank you for the replies :) i hope things have been okay for you!! wishing you the best