Novembre 11 2020
Process.
Today I read in a creative writing prompt book that something that often blocks the creative process is not fully trusting your instincts. When I read this, it hit a nerve. something more tender than I care to admit. but it was a wound that this sentence made me realize I had within me.Ā
Iāve been feeling frustrated. Feeling like I have words that are stuck inside and Iām growing impatient with myself and my process. Feeling that the deadline I imposed has long expired and Iām running against a clock. I also think this clock is something that my mind calibrated based on where I think other creatives are around me.Ā
I often sayĀ āI donāt knowā after sharing my thoughts, as if to say that Iām not sure of myself. But sometimes I do, but I say I donāt know anyways. I think this defaultĀ āstutterā is exposing this doubt that has been plaguing my own view of my instincts.Ā
When did doubt infiltrate my instinct? What happened to me? How do I undo it? How do I re-engage it and nurture it again?
