Dear rakatho,
5 years have pass, and a lot of things happened. I've found a stable job, made friends and enemies--err, well I've built much needed confidence to move forward, enjoy, as well as win this life.
I've never thought I'll be in a position that I never thought I would if I were to recall, I detested a food related job since 2012 from my experience with that pizza store. But the odds are funny, I'm now a manager in the making. Though I've always felt like I've never ever been worthy of this title I'm always trying to give the best this job requires me to.
I'm moving forward from all the mistakes that I've experienced. It truly is a game of who's gonna make it far & survive more. But I'm grateful, truly I am. I've had the worst nightmare about love. The one thing I thought I would be lucky to have.
Well, it's safe to say, please forgive me if I say I made the wrong choices out of it. I disregarded a lot of cons because for quite sometime I thought it was real. Now, I grew tired of waiting for something that's never gonna come. I hate to say that I've wasted a lot of my time with someone who changed his mind. That's life, I guess. We can't let them choose us just because we loved them with our all, gave every piece of anything they needed. That won't make them stay.
I thought I'll be ok, but no, I was so uncomfortable that I became silent and just let it all out. The only thing I wish is that I'm never gonna see a glimpse of that person again.
I'm trying to be happy now! I made a lot of discoveries with myself now, the things I want to do, go back to my long forgotten hobbies.
Was I lost because of it? Well, maybe but now I'm getting back from where I went off, it'll be hard but slowly I want to just care about my family, provide their needs and be happy.
🫶💜