#randomwritting

[rosesandarcanas]

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“Donde el tiempo no existe”

Nos acostamos sin prisa,

como si el mundo se hubiera quedado en pausa para vernos respirar juntos.

Sus brazos me rodeaban con una ternura que no conocía del todo,

como si esta vez sí supiera sostenerme sin miedo.

Y yo…

yo me dejaba ir, como si por fin hubiera encontrado un lugar que no doliera.

El jardín no era real,

pero tampoco una ilusión.

Era un rincón del alma donde todo lo que no fue

seguía ocurriendo en otra dimensión.

Debussy sonaba de fondo.

Clair de Lune se deslizaba entre los árboles,

tocando nuestras pieles como un suspiro suave.

Y entre nota y nota,

yo le miraba.

Y él, a mí.

No hacían falta palabras.

Solo el roce lento de nuestras respiraciones,

la calma de no tener que decirlo todo,

el alivio de no cargar con el pasado.

Era un encuentro sin culpa,

sin preguntas,

sin tiempo.

Como si el universo nos hubiera regalado

unos minutos de eternidad

para recordarnos

que cuando hay amor verdadero,

nunca desaparece del todo.

Y ahí, entre la música y su abrazo,

entendí que a veces,

el alma se permite descansar

donde el cuerpo no puede quedarse.

[rosesandarcanas]

tomorrow never came

Canción inspiración : Tomorrow Never Came- Lana del Rey ft Sean Lennon

''Pues claro que te he extrañado pues,

Simplemente soy muy cobarde e insegura para decirlo, tan orgullosa para admitirlo porque el miedo que me acecha pensando abruptamente que no te sientes de la misma manera, me inunda como el mar entrando por las ventanas de un barco en pleno naufragio.

Las conversaciones que he tenido contigo , no las tengo con alguien más,la calidez que tus palabras me hacían sentir no la encuentro en los rayos del sol, en la manta que uso para dormir, ni en el abrigo calentito que tanto adoro.

Te dejé ir con todo el corazón hecho una bola de sentimientos, los cuales ignoré por completo, no sabes qué falta haces en mi día a día. Te mantengo en mi cabeza, intacto , huyendo hacia ti cuando todo torna mal , como ese último abrazo que te di.

En las noches en esta extraña soledad te abrazo , me quedo ahí, como si tú estuvieras presente conmigo, que tenemos conversaciones imaginarias , nos damos una gran vida. Perdona la cobardía de no ir a por ti , de decirte “ aquí estoy, soy tuya en cuerpo y alma”.

Te abrazo con toda la soledad que en esta madrugada me inunda , deseando gozosamente que tenga el valor de decirte todo esto sin ocultarme , sin miedos y con toda la seguridad de quererte y amarte sin límites.

Pues claro que te he extrañado, pues me he enamorado de ti.''

[rosesandarcanas]

Si pero no.

“I had all and then most of you…”

No sé en qué momento empezaste a habitarme. Fue tan suave que no lo noté, hasta que ya eras parte de todo. No tuvimos tiempo, pero tuvimos algo. Un algo que me mira desde adentro cuando cierro los ojos y siento que estás cerca. Como si el universo aún conspirara para que volvamos al punto donde todo empezó a doler —porque también ahí empezó a sentirse real.

A veces me quedo imaginando que te vuelvo a ver. Que no te vas. Que esta vez te quedas. Y que me dices con la mirada lo que nunca supiste poner en palabras.

No te culpo por no quedarte. Pero tampoco puedo olvidarte.

Sigo volviendo a la noche en que te conocí. Aunque no sepa cómo encontrar el camino de regreso.

[pansyelisep]

a letter to Elise

"Oh Elise, it doesn't matter what you do, I know I'll never get inside of you to make your eyes catch fire the way they should"

So little is known of Pansy Parkinson, he dreams, her vision, her philosophies, her passions; born into a so-called "pureblood" family, her loyalty to the Slytherin Prince Draco Malfoy and so on, of course, she was aware of how much she was disliked by the other students, was she proud of the reasons? Well into a retrospective into her teenage years, of course, she was, looking forward to fitting in with the stereotypes her family and society had on her...and of course to get Draco's attention.

Now into adulthood, into maturity, into the selfless idea to fit, to mend things, she wasn't proud of what she had done. The reproducing thoughts of the so-well-called purity of blood, just made her ill "How could I still follow that Mama?" Pansy asked her mother holding her tears and looking at her green eyes "Elise... it is the way it should be, look at yourself dearest" Mrs Parkinson reached her daughter holding her face with her hands whipping away the tears that fell off her face "You are the daughter and heiress of a great wizard, who as many others fought to give his family recognition and a place among the greatest wizarding families; my darling one, you shouldn't be ashamed of what you are or what you have become, let's put it this way, it is in your blood" Pansy could only feel her body shaking as her mother spoke, she knew deep down it wasn't right, the trauma of seeing bodies all over Hogwarts just stalked her at nights. The emotions were too hard to explain, was it anger? fear? anxiety? sadness? "I know, what Papa did...but I was ruthless mamma, lied, hurt but whatever for? I am hated, taken for granted as the bully, as the typical Slytherin, elitist and the list goes on" Pansy cried "I am not asking for you to change, but to understand what I did was not right!" the youngest Parkinson screamed and put away her mother's hands "I can't live with it, everything that /they/ fought for made me see the reality, it is ludicrous to still hold on into that state of mind Mama" Mrs Parkinson just sat back into her chaise and sighed "What happened to my little girl? All that non-sense war had changed you, I have lost my only daughter." The senior Parkinson said as she looked away from her daughter's eyes.

"I'm sorry mother, I am getting a divorce and leaving as soon as possible to Scotland, I have nothing to do here if your decision is final " Pansy replied "Draco nor I want this absurd marriage, I am taking over my life and moving on from this" she sighed standing up and closing the door behind her putting all her hopes, memories and dreams into her suitcase and close to her heart, in the end, she knew it was right, to leave all behind and forgive herself. High hopes for her future relationship with her mother, for her to understand the greatness of her only daughter without a marriage, a bright witch that could move forward into her career.

[cosmique-sorciere]

the inner thoughts, the ones inside your head, sometimes the ones that never even go out and see the world; probably this doesn’t make sense, probably it does,we will never know...I just know that time to time , you just need to take some things/thoughts or whatsoever out of your system. do it, it works, whoever is reading, you can do it.

[soullesswandererx3]

picture this : you and i living the “ american dream “ but , instead of a white picket fence , we opt for little thin white lines . our self destruction makes for the most epic love story . a twisted and fucked up modern day romeo and juliet . destined to fall victim of this love . could we get it together long enough to survive ? or will our demons get the best of us ?

[awesome-soo-yun-universe]

Break it...

"Don't" just hear, listen. Don't just Do, Live it. Don't just Breath but Feel it...

Let it go and Believe it"

[mommyshani-blog]

Tonight

As i lay down to close my eyes , the emptyness i feel with out you by my side . I take a deep breathe & i try to relax as i imagine your body next to mines to try and get some rest At times it work some times it fails . I need to feel your touch it needs to be real . Will you be here , i need you right here . A breeze past my shell with out your body parallel makes me fear that when im alone are you still here . My mind & body needs you . My body needs your blood to flow next to mines . My life needs your present im not safe with out my angel , my sheild , my man , my love , my king .  Close your eyes and imagine my body as i do yours my king ! Remember when your challenging what life brings , remember when your alone on nights like these . That i cant harly ever go to sleep , while i imagine you my love , dont forget to dream about me