#rdiary

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Dear R,

As much as I want to smile at you,

Talk to you, or even just look at you.

The thing is I can’t.

And it pains me.

How much I wanted to say those words i’ve been keeping from everyone even from myself.

I just can’t.

[rinett4]

Here we go again

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I deleted all my pictures on instagram. I felt like deactivating my instagram account once again but I am not sure; still considering.

I also removed all followers from my second twitter account (I'm sorry). Not going to tweet anything from my main twitter. 

So, my plan is to take a break from any social media except tumblr. How can I live without tumblr?

I've been thinking a lot and doing self-reflect lately. 

I need more "space" to fix myself and my mind.

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I had 2 papers yesterday and it wasn't as difficult as I initially thought. I just don't want my pointer to drop. 

A day left before I turn 22! 

Will be having an outing with my best friend tomorrow. I can't wait. 

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My finals start tomorrow and I just studied a little. I am so lazy right now.

Since YG merchandises (I'm focusing on WINNER) are freaking expensive, I decided to go on diet to save money. So, I get to buy WINNER sweater and lost weight. I'm not sure about dieting again but I will try my best. 

I plan to buy another 2 pairs of shoes T-T

I have a lot of things I want to buy but I am so poor. 

I am not sure about my saving plan anymore...

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My Socio presentation was terrible because I messed up while reading. Fuck it! It's done anyway.  

Today we had like "express your feeling" kind of session about the camping we went last month, and there were lots of dramas. And I didn't even take part because I've written everything in my self-reflection. Though, I felt sorry about what happened. (See, I am not an arsehole) 

Next week finals start!

Can't wait to finish my last assignment; choral speaking on Friday. Thank God my lecturer changed the day. 

Tried local soda today and it was great (and instagram worthy haha)

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My assignments are all done. I just have to practice for my presentation tomorrow and choral speaking on Saturday.

My mum just booked flight tickets because apparently my grandmother misses us so much.

I plan to skip the first week when the semester break is over in November because I don’t wanna be alone at home and of course, I wanna meet my grandmother once again. 

Now, I am thinking what I want to wear (Airport outfits are important!)

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It is like 4.45 am here but I can't sleep. I keep thinking about stuff and shit. And right now, I am wide awake so, I might finish my assignment, hopefully.