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readyfuels replied to your post: It is financially and socially irresponsible to go...

I’m glad you’re going to do it, it’s the only reasonable choice.

Right?? And frankly, if friends don’t understand the MIGHTY NEED then who needs ‘em? 

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readyfuels replied to your post “Everyone I’ve ever liked/dated/hooked up with has turned out to be...”

What works, works!

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“Everyone I’ve ever liked/dated/hooked up with has turned out to be...”

TBH age matters so much less as adults. My sister married a guy 18 years older than her and he's legit the only guy who can keep up with her. It works very well.

This is all very true. I think my main hangup is that his most recent ex is 10 years younger than me so he might just be a lil creepy lol.

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readyfuels replied to your post: Hey Anberlin friends are we gonna call Stephen out...

I believe my response to seeing it was “learn how to use your phone, grandpa.”

I bet one of his kids could have figured it out in like three seconds, he is truly old and out of touch with technology.

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Talk about... the odd numbers!

Here goes!

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

My favourite movies are all over the map and some of them I can’t remember watching for the first time because I was little.

-101 Dalmatians I watched on VHS every single day when I was six. I’m sure my parents loved it.

-I can’t remember the first time I saw The Princess Bride, but I can tell you I still watch it whenever it’s on TV and I love that movie so much, you don’t even know.

-I can’t remember the first time I saw The Neverending Story, but I did have a huge crush on Atreyu, thought Falcor was a dog and was traumatized by the Swamp of Sadness scene.

-I remember seeing Newsies on TV when it was new-ish and not knowing what it was for a LONG time.

-I went on a huge James Dean kick ~high school and that was when I fell in love with Rebel Without A Cause. I wrote essays on it in university when I found reason to. I love it so much. I also love East Of Eden, but it took me like three tries to get through Giant without falling asleep.

3: Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.

I told one story, and in my last post briefly mentioned someone else I had a thing for. Well I was suuuuuper into him for 2 years of college, like it was bad. Nothing ever happened though but for most of that time he was really nice. Anyway, he had a graduation party at his house at the end of college and there was actually a LOT of shit that went down that night that is hilarious now. But right before my friends and I left, being drunk and kind of dumb, I pulled him aside and was like, “SO DUDE I KINDA REALLY LIKE YOU” and I haven’t really talked to him since then and THIS IS WHY I DON’T DO THAT ANYMORE.

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had.

The last few have been really good. This year’s was super chill and laid back and kind of what I want birthdays to be from here on out because when I plan something bigger it always goes wrong. This year was just some friends at a bar, having drinks, talking, it was fun and simple.

Last year, the weekend after my birthday I went to celebrate with my out-of-town friends from college and the next day was br-u-u-u-u-u-tal but the actual night was incredibly fun. People bought me drinks well beyond the point where that was okay, but I had a good time, until I didn’t anymore. And the next morning I was hungover as BALLS on the train and immediately went to see Captain America, so that  was fun.

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

I think I’m in general a lot more secure than I was even like a year ago, and that’s such a good feeling. Insecurities mostly come up when I compare myself to other people. Like hearing about people someone finds attractive and thinking “that is nothing like me.”

I’m also kind of insecure, I guess, about where I am in life and at times my “maturity.” Everyone my age seems to be doing more and... I live at home and go on boyband cruises. I am not a successful adult.

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

I effing love my freckles. I didn’t always, but now I’m weirdly fascinated with them. There’s a smattering of freckles on my left ankle that showed up after I went to Jamaica, they look like a constellation, and they’re great. There’s also more on my chest and the tops of my feet since that trip and I really like them.

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

I had amazing dreams when I was little. Once, when I was maybe 7 or 8, I had a three-part miniseries dream over the course of three nights. It took place in a jungle and somehow involved the Hardy Boys. I don’t remember a lot of details anymore, but it was cool. For some reason I remember that it was in the summer and we were at the cottage when I had the dreams.

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

Haaaa well. Does it count if you barely felt anything? I was kind of a late bloomer (21) and it was a random hookup at a club and I still get teased about it because he was a total fuckboy with a small dick. But it’s funny to me, because I didn’t even care at the time and didn’t have a lot of stock in the concept of virginity. We call him “microdick,” he WOULD NOT LEAVE when all of my friends came back to the hotel, apparently hit on some girls walking by when he went outside for a smoke and I made him share a bed with somebody else because I was over it.

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

In a particular moment or in general? I’m (mostly) content with life at the moment because I feel like it’s a lot less dull than it was even 3 months ago. In a particular moment... probably just like, maybe a day like two summers ago where some good friends and I just moved from patio to patio sharing pitchers and then I went to another friend’s house and continued drinking, it was like 12 solid hours of hanging with good people, being outside, and steadily drinking. It was nice.

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

I need to be better friends with Work Crush ‘cause after Sunday I might not see him around as much and I want it not to be weird to talk to him randomly, so there’s that.

But like actually I’m totally smitten with him but I feel like... just being friends would be awesome? Like he’s just a good dude? And we like so much of the same shit. He’s like a boy, pocket-sized version of me.

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

Ok so, in Grade 6, I think my teacher was sort of crazy. There was one day she apparently had a Rice Krispie Square that she’d left on her desk, and it disappeared. Now, being a group of 11 year olds, it’s entirely possible one of us took it, only everyone seemed pretty sure that we didn’t. No one fessed up, so Mrs. Kapsa kept us all in for lunch demanding to know who took her stupid snack and lecturing us about honesty and theft and blah blah blah.

We’re pretty sure she ate it and forgot.

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

Oh. Oh, oh, oh.

There was a regular at my store who was always... a little bit off. He could be annoying sometimes because he’d talk at length about music no one cared about and ask for CDs that, as far as I could tell, didn’t exist. He seemed to think everything should have a remastered anniversary re-release or whatever, and I didn’t know how to explain that, dude, nobody cares about the first solo album from the lead singer of Journey. Nobody. Stop.

I knew he was infatuated with me because he wasn’t very subtle and sometimes brought up exactly how long I’d worked there (which was weird, why did he know?), but he was harmless so I sort of left it alone.

Then one night, we’re closing the store and he’s just kinda lingering. We normally go about closing procedures even if someone is there to kind of hurry them along, but he wasn’t leaving.

Finally Cat was like, “screw it I’m getting the doors.” So she went to close the gates and that was when he approached me at the cash desk while I was counting, and he says,

“Would you care to join me sometime in the food court?”

And I felt so bad but he was just a little unsettling and I was not into it at all, and it was so awkward but I’m not gonna say that to him, you know? So I told him I had a boyfriend.

After that he became known as Food Court Date.

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.

Oh, only every time I’ve actually made the first move ever, no big deal. Let’s see, there was College Boy from an earlier question, and in high school there was Ed. That was just a very straightforward crush (he was one of my Perc Boys in band) and near the end of the year I had a stroke of bravery to ask him out in person and he said no. That sucked but at the time I was super proud of myself for actually doing it.

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

I’ve never really had a friendship end in a massive falling out, just kinda drifting apart, which sucks too. But here’s a story, about my first-grade best friend, Laura. She was a year older than me and I realized years later that the dynamic was very, very strange. She was a bit manipulative. It was always about playing the games she wanted to play, and what really stands out is how she told me at one point that if I wasn’t the one to call her every night, we weren’t friends anymore. We were six and seven.

We grew apart when we weren’t in the same class the next year.

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.

You know that “v” thing some guys have real low down on their hips/pelvic bone? That.

Also I have a thing with slightly-greying beards lately.

29: Talk about what turns you on.

A good sense of humour, being genuinely interested and interesting, not being super needy because I am emotionally crippled and not about that.

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

Ideally, nothing. I don’t believe in an afterlife so I figure it’s like going to sleep and then that’s it, the end of consciousness.

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

I used to listen to “Cities” by Anberlin but now that makes it worse and by The Unwinding Cable Car I’m bawling my eyes out, so I’ve gone back to listening to cheesy pop music because it always makes me smile.

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

I wish I could stop impulsively spending money. I want to be a reasonable adult who can afford things like not living at home but then... things are so pretty, and tempting, and I want to travel and buy overpriced merchandise and generally not be very responsible at all.

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

I did once question whether I was in love with a friend of mine I really liked for a while. It lasted for years and I would feel kinda sad about/around him and I drunk texted him a lot which was awkward. Then I didn’t see him for a long time and got a lot more level headed about it, but saw him again recently and it was exactly like it always is, because old habits die hard.

Except that now I’m like, I don’t know why I am the way that I am around you but I am actually not into it at all anymore so wtf.

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

“Hey self, it’ll probably be ok if you work fewer hours during university and give yourself time to get actual experience in your field, it might be helpful.”

I mean either that or,

“Hey don’t bother taking that in university you don’t really wanna do that anyway.”

PHEW.

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I believe the Robbie sketch was for Comic Relief! And the other woman is an actor called Sheridan Smith

Thank you! The name Sheridan Smith sounds familiar but I don’t recognize her at all.

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SONG OF THE DAY:

"We're running, we're running hot tonight and it feels so good."

(Anberlin - Ready Fuels)

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Anberlin - Readyfuels

Soundtrack to today's aggressirun. Going back to my roots this week.