"I’m here- I’m here, now." [ from fuller ]
They always say EVERYTHING SLOWED DOWN, but Lilli hadn’t even remembered deciding to pick up the gun before the shots were fired, before her father’s body hit the floor.
Her focus is just that: FOCUSED. But not on the sounds of the agents busting in on the sounds of shots, not on the pain that ebbed in her body, nor the throbbing in her head. It was Fuller, Samuel, SAMMY who had her full attention. His words stopped everything else flooding in at once, so she used it, propped her mental state on his presence. And not too far after, physically. Lilli’s weight fell against his and she felt her fingers cling, grip to the fabric of his shirt before her weight slipped completely to the floor. Bare feet shifted on the floorboards, shuffling blind to get a grip on the ground.
Lilli lets her head drop ( it was meant to be a lot gentler than it was ) to rest on Samuel’s shoulder, and then to droop, eventually her face resting in his chest. She knew there were trails of her dried tears tracking her face, knew she was stupid to be thinking about HOW SHE LOOKED. Used to perfection, used to being in control, and everything this was was the OPPOSITE, so it made sense that her thoughts were coursing through how she would normally regain that control. Didn’t help her feel better, though. That was Sam being there. That made her feel... At least more grounded.
“ Knew you’d come. ” The words were muffled, but the tone was unmistakably one of a tongue in cheek YOU’RE LATE. Or it would have been if there wasn’t a hoarseness to Lilli’s voice that wasn’t usually there. What WAS undeniable was the gratitude she held, and that she hoped against hope was in her words: she didn’t know how long it would take her to be able to express reasonable emotions, and she knew she was moments away from being swept away into the back of an ambulance - she could hear the sirens and knew it wouldn’t be long - where conversation would be interrupted by medical examinations she didn’t want but knew she would need.
“ Will you stay? ”
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