so ill get this feeling sometimes where its like ,, i hate the fact that im a person and i like exist and it usually makes me super impulsive and restless, and its like ,,, i get hyperaware of all my surroundings and its really scary and emotional for a little bit but then i just start dissociating hella and it sucks ,, is that like ,, a normal thing like rejecting ur humanity and stuff? i dunno if youll know anything abt this but its dissociation so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Okay so that’s totally me all the time? I wish I had an answer on if this is normal. I’ve been more uncomfortable with the idea of being a person lately. I’m going to learn more about the brain, human impulses, how we think, and animals in college because learning about humans helps me understand why I do things more, and that seems to help. I also keep thinking there’s some bigger /thing/. Reason for the universe, reason why everyone does what they do, etc. Remembering that it’s just the laws of the universe (human instinct, physics) controlling everything can help me. I hope this message is reassuring. Much love.
