Is this the end?
July 13, 2021 at 7 pm
I just reached home and was waiting for my husband to message me as he always does.
We are in a long distance relationship at the moment by the way.
I was having an instinct that something is not right. My gut was telling me. After half an hour, I received a long message from him.
“I am financially weak”, “I cannot support us”, “I don’t know what will happen in the next years to come”, “if you feel stuck, let me know”, “I don’t think I can handle the long distance anymore”, “I guess I wasn’t ready”… these are the only words that I read from his messages. I felt very sad all of a sudden and wanted to cry so I climbed up to my bed and immediately seek comfort from my blankets and pillows and started to cry silently. I live with a bunch of people and I don’t want them to see my or hear me crying.
Tears were flowing down from my eyes nonstop and even though how much I wiped them, it doesn’t seem to stop. The message for me was like he was breaking up with me. It’s been 5 minutes of me crying and I don’t know what to respond him.
We had a long exchange of texts and at the end, my response was still hopeful that whatever we are going through, everything will be alright.
I am hopeful and he was giving up!