A knock at my chamber door rouses me from my thoughts as I watch Tora and Hati play on the fur in front of the hearth. Getting up from the edge of the bed, I answer the door, surprised when a servant hands me a note. When I open it and see my son’s name scrawled at the bottom, I feel a mistiness come to my eyes. We never should have brought him here. We should have insisted that he stay in Bebbanburg.
I had a feeling the purpose of bringing him here was to annul his marriage to Björn so that the courts could force him into a loveless marriage with a person of their choosing. Someone that furthered their ambitions, much like what my husband was forced to endure.
Ag fágáil Ulaid le filleadh abhaile. Tá mo áit le Prionsa Kattegat. Is breá liom tú.
Oh, Ronan. And now he is running back home. I feel a shiver of dread run down my spine. Will the courts charge him with treason? Hopefully not, if Finan and I have any say in the matter. I heard the servants gossiping that King Constantin is the one Ronan was promised to. To bring an end to the war between Alba and Ulaid. Will he let my son go? Or will he hunt the prince down and force him to uphold the agreement. Just the thought of it tears at my heart. I know Björn won’t let him go. He will fight to the death to protect what they have.
I worry for them both on the road, especially with Alba’s men along the borders. What if they are found? They have no guardsmen with them and could easily be overtaken. The thought of either one of them getting hurt is like a weight settling in my stomach. I know I won’t rest until they both make it home, where I know Lagertha and Ragnar will protect them. Where they will be safe within the walls of Bebbanburg.
I have to do what I can to help them in their journey. Picking Tora up from the floor, I throw my fur cloak over my shoulders. My little girl gives me a curious look as I head out of our chambers.
“We are going to go visit some friends, my sweet girl.” I softly say, forcing a smile on my face so that she doesn’t pick up on the unsettledness I am feeling. Hati follows close on my heels.
Heading down to the kitchens I gather some scraps of meat in a cloth. Before heading outside I turn to face Hati. “You stay. I don’t need you stealing their food.” The wolf dog gives me a curious look, but he stays as requested, letting out a little whine as Tora and I walk away.
Once outside, I carry Tora with me to the gardens. It was always my favorite place on the grounds during my captivity. Of course, this time of year, there are no flowers on the rose bushes. Everything has gone dormant for the winter. I spread out the scraps of meat on the ground near the stone bench I would sit at for hours, before taking a seat. I place Tora on my lap as we wait for Hugin and Munin to arrive. I know they are around here somewhere, since they follow me wherever I go.
Tora lets out a little squeal when one of the ravens land near the scrapes of food. Her hand instantly reaching out wanting to touch the bird. A few moments later the other raven lands on the ground. I have learned how to tell them apart. Hugin is just a little bit larger than Munin, but Munin has a shinier coat of feathers. Both birds let out little croaks as they pick up the morsels of food, much to Tora’s delight. She tries to mimic their sounds, which garners curious glances from the ravens.
After the ravens finish their scraps of meat, Hugin flies up to perch on the end of the stone bench, closer to Tora and I. They are getting bolder, the trust between us growing stronger day by day. Munin, not to be out done, flies up and perches on my knee. I suck in a breath of surprise as Tora instantly starts babbling to the raven, holding out her little hand. Munin squawks back to her and for a moment it’s like they are having their own conversation. After a few breathless moments, Munin cranes his neck and places the top of his head against Tora’s outreached hand. She giggles in response.
“Be gentle with him…” I softly whisper to Tora, concerned that she’ll get excited and scare him.
Looking over at Hugin, I see him curiously watching the interaction between Munin and my daughter. He’s not quite brave enough to get closer, but he’s still closer than I have ever seen him.
“I need you to watch over my sons. Björn and Ronan.” I look into Hugin’s eyes, not sure if he is understanding me, but hopeful that he is. “They are journeying home and I need you to make sure they make it home safely. Alert them to any dangers along the way. Guide their way home.” Hugin tilts his head at me as if he is listening intently to every word I say.
“Munin will stay here to watch over us. He will return home with us, when the time comes.” I glance at Munin as he rubs his head against Tora’s hand, my daughter’s giggles filling the air.
“Can you do this for me?” I ask the raven, feeling almost silly as I wait for a response. I swear I see Hugin give a little nod of his head before he suddenly takes flight. I release the breath I didn’t realize I was holding, watching as Hugin flies in the direction the boys would have taken in their journey home.
“Thank you…” I softly whisper, praying to the Gods he can keep them safe from danger. I watch until he is but a speck on the horizon.