Oh my goodness I don't know if I've ever felt this unmotivated to go riding. Even though the weather will be absolutely perfect tomorrow and as it's going to be very warm, hot even, my usually very speedy and quite reactive steed is most likely going to be a saint because of it and a friend is joining me to keep company and perhaps take some pictures, I still do not feel like going. Mostly I feel like I can only if not harm, set back all the horses I ride, as much as I try to be gentle yet consistent and I feel so stupid for it. I've felt this way on-and-off probaby since my heart horse (of all that I've met so far, I am still very much at the beginning of my riding career (hopefully)) died but as of one comment I got on instagram a couple days back I have not felt like riding or really going to the stables at all.
