Hi, I'm Shallow/Ridley! I am one of those silly self shippers who likes fighting games a lot, but I have a particular soft spot for the booba fighting game series, Dead or Alive, where the (iconic) shinobi duo of Ryu Hayabusa and Hayate have stolen my heart. I also play other titles like Tekken, Blazblue, Guilty Gear, KoF, and many more! I (rarely) do art and writings but I've been recently making gmvs (game music videos) for fun!
TL;DR: I could be your local fighting game and ninja gaiden mutual <3
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Welcome! I'm Ridley (or Shallow), your local self shipper and fighting game enthusiast! This blog is the one-stop shop for me to talk about media I like and a place for me to talk about the many fictional characters that I've fallen in love with and happen to live in my head rent free!
Currently at the moment I can't stop thinking about fighting games, specifically Dead or Alive, Mortal Kombat, Soul Calibur, Blazblue, M.U.G.E.N. and Tekken - just to name a few! I am also a big character action game enthusiast like Ninja Gaiden, and many games in Grasshopper Manufacture's library! I also make art, sew, knit and write as well and while I am not consistent, I do make creative works!
Please feel free explore this blog as you'd like, or sit back, relax, and enjoy your stay!
"I will become a monster to fight the monsters of the world. Because I'm CM PUNK and I'm better than you!"
- CM Punk on AEW: Rampage after being assaulted and bladed by Maxwell Jacob Friedman
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Welcome! The name’s Ridley (or Shallow), I am the General Manager and CEO of this Self Ship Blog! You are free to roam around but please be careful if you plan to visit the backstage area, the green room or locker room areas! You might run into a few folks who are getting ready for today’s show, and its best not to bother them as they have many things to concentrate on!
When watching today’s show, please follow the designated seating arrangements that are printed on your ticket. In the meantime, feel free to grab some food, merch or chat with friends and fellow fans! If you have any further inquiries, please send them to the ask-box and we’ll try to make sure management responds in a timely manner.
Other than that, sit back, relax and enjoy the show!
a very long post about bateman, and how i made a mistake liking him in the first place and should have shut that shit down when it started. the prioritization of my white feelings have gotten people hurt and its best to acknowledge that I was wrong for even liking him in the first place.
i really don't want to make a post like this but i just want to ask people to please stop associating me with bateman. I know my feelings were quite strong for him however I should have never liked him to begin with and I should have stopped liking him much earlier. i unfortunately prioritised my white feelings over the comfort of real people and honestly after thinking about it, its just not worth it anymore.
I get I should be self-indulgent but sometimes your feelings for fictional characters can get real people hurt and its your responsibility to accept that fact and own up to it. To my detriment I now recognize that liking bateman was the wrong thing to begin with. sure he has all the social commentary behind him as a character, but honestly that is too late and inexcusable. I was catering to my own feelings over the actual lives of other people who are negatively affected by the character's actions, I've lost friendships over it and now I have to deal with the consequences of my own actions, of which I do deserve. It should also be noted that unfortunately the original commentary of the character has been twisted to become a trojan horse that looks funny but actually peddles and pushes harmfully shitty ideas onto young impressionable audiences in the real world who don't have the full context or understanding of the source media.
When people think of bateman they don't think of the actual in-depth commentary left by Ellis or Herron, no, they think of the vile viral videos that endorse shitty 'alpha sigma whatever bullshit wolf pseudoscience label' ideas onto impressionable young amab teens who are confused and scared about the wider world and how it leaves them to internalize toxic ideas of masculinity. hence why people are reasonably disgusted by him.
I should have known better to even entertain the idea of liking him, and I should have cut myself away from all of his source material to begin with. Real people have gotten hurt due to the nature of the character and the source, I can't forgive myself for that, my reckless self-indulgence has caused real discomfort and harm to other people, I feel that I should have noticed it sooner and dropped him earlier. Hence, why to me, its not really worth liking him in it in the long run, plus like there are so many other much better slasher-like characters out there that don't have the same amount of controversial baggage as bateman has.
I do genuinely want to apologies to people that have felt genuinely hurt by me for liking bateman. Your discomfort is absolutely valid and you have every damn right to not accept any apologies from me, because I have to work for that forgiveness, i have to work hard to earn that respect back. if you've blocked me in the long run, i don't blame you, I'd probably do the same thing too. Sure the heart yearns for what it wants but sometimes you NEED to put that thinking cap back on and priortise other people's safety over your own feelings and that's a good learning experience.
Unfortunately, also I realise that I've put my thinking cap on way too late, and I don't think anything i do is really going to fix that even if I try as hard as a I can. But at the same time it's better to acknowledge that you're wrong as opposed to taking the cowards way out and doubling down, not bothering to learn from the mistakes to begin with.
The only other takeaway from this is that I do acknowledge that american psycho as a piece of media in general is a fantastic litmus test to know the level/understanding of a person's media literacy skills, which is pretty valuable in my opinion. If that's some silver lining I can take away from this, then that's okay with me.
If you made it all the way to the end, thank you for taking the time to read this, however it's up to you if you still want to interact with me and I won't blame you for not wanting to interact with me anymore.
Also before anyone asks, I'm actually not as heartbroken about it at all, however i am disappointed in myself for letting it happen in the first place and I should have just. you know. not enacted upon said crush to begin with. I've deleted many posts involving patrick but there's probably some that i've missed and i'l do my best to search through my blog to find them and delete the rest.
The following list contains the tags for posts related to specific interests. This is for organisation purposes but you can use this as a blacklist for curation purposes (be it you don't want to see the content or said content makes you uncomfortable).
Interest Specific Tags:
self ship shenanigans = any post that is self ship related, especially if they are reblogged from another user. my own posts talking about self ships won't be tagged as 'self ship shenanigans' unless i make a post that's specifically for the community.
self ship support = a tag dedicated to supporting other people's self ships and creations the community makes
Shallow Dives into the Weird World of Wrestling = tag dedicated to all things wrestling related.
Media Specific Tags:
pokémonposting = posts about pokémon, includes the games, anime and detective pikachu
guildposting = posts about fairy tail
gaidenposting = posts about the ninja gaiden series
danganronpaposting = posts about Danganronpa but it’s usually just ibuki Mioda + Sonia nevermind + Eve’s Academy (fan game)
bleachposting = posts about tite kubo's bleach
suda51posting = posts about all things by suda51/grasshopper manufacture
nomoreposting = posts specifically about no more heroes.
killer7posting = posts specifically about killer7
friendshiposting = posts about mlp: fim.
cyberpunkposting = posts about anything related to the cyberpunk genre. can include cyberpunk 2077, ghost in the shell etc.
horrorposting = posts about anything horror related. includes movies, shows, manga etc. that are considered to be 'horror'.
filmposting = posts about movies. mostly contains movie gifsets.
sanrioposting = posts about the Sanrio merchandise + series
comicbookposting = posts relating to comic book media, like marvel, dc, dark horse and other indie comic media. it does also include mainstream comic book media adaptations: i.e: mcu, dceu, amazon's the boys, and other comic book tv/movie media.
cloverposting = posts about black clover.
narutoposting = posts about naruto and boruto
deathnoteposting = posts about death note.
streetposting = posts about capcom's street fighter franchise
kombatposting = posts about midway/netherrealm's mortal kombat franchise + 1995 and 2021 film.
tekkenposting = posts about bandai namco's tekken series.
monsterhighposting = posts about the doll line, animated series and movies
jojoposting = posts about the manga by araki and the anime by david productions
final fantasyposting = posts about the final fantasy series
rwbyposting = posts about monty oum's and rooster teeth's animated series.
gearposting = posts about the guilty gear series.
blazblueposting = posts about blazblue
boomer shooterposting = posts about retro games that are considered to be the OG shooters. mostly consists of duke nukem and 2000’s Deus ex
reprisalposting = posts about hulu's 2019 original series, reprisal.
galaxyposting = posts about media set in space, i.e: StarCraft, Star Trek, Star Wars etc.
winxposting = posts about winx club, a long running italian magical girl series
hordeposting = posts about dreamworks/netflix's she-ra: princess of power reboot.
overwatchposting = posts about... overwatch.
tenseiposting = posts about atlus's shin megami tensei and persona series
masqueradeposting = posts about vampire: the masquerade series
fullmetalposting = posts about the anime and manga, fullmetal alchemist
emblemposting = posts about all things fire emblem
obscure gameposting = posts about very obscure video games. (I.e: god hand, chaos legion, wanted: dead, bloody roar etc)
m.u.g.e.n.posting = posts about mugen, the free fighting game engine.
snkposting = posts about media by the Japanese video game company, snk (mostly garou and kof)
donghuaposting = posts about donghua media/animated series.
augposting = posts about the deus ex series
rahiposting = posts about lego bionicle media
doatecposting = posts about the dead or alive video game franchise
hotlineposting = posts about the hotline miami duology + any related mods like the HUNTER series
tokusastuposting = posts about media tokusatsu although it’s mostly just power rangers stuff and maybe Garo stuff in the future
“You guys really know how to make a kid feel like Britt Baker in Pittsburgh.“
- CM Punk, returning to wrestling after 7+ years
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f/o tag directory | self inserts + ocs
blue aesthetic blog | stim blog | jjba s/i aesthetic blog
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Welcome! The name’s Ridley (or Shallow), I am the General Manager and CEO of this Self Ship Blog! You are free to roam around but please be careful if you plan to visit the backstage area, the green room or locker room areas! You might run into a few folks who are getting ready for today’s show, and its best not to bother them as they have many things to concentrate on!
When watching today’s show, please follow the designated seating arrangements that are printed on your ticket. In the meantime, feel free to grab some food, merch or chat with friends and fellow fans! If you have any further inquiries, please send them to the ask-box and we’ll try to make sure management responds in a timely manner. We are currently on a hiatus at the moment so please check back in a few months!
Other than that, sit back, relax and enjoy the show!
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