#rivailleplz

[the-secret-diaries-of-my-life]

Today marks a year since i last saw you. I walked into school to see teana...i was in shock, i had just learned maree was gone...not many people knew..i think you did. You didn't say anything. You just looked at me.

[the-secret-diaries-of-my-life]

I miss you Alida. It still feels like yesterday I saw you. Which also means I haven't even started processing that fact that you are gone.

[char-aznable]

09.05.13 ★ Happy 18th birthday, Alida (rivailleplz)! :D I really do hope that you`re having fun up there. We all miss you. I love you. Thanks for everything. ♥

[wiz-khalevi]

alida (rivailleplz) has a post from her mom on her tumblr which says that she died please tell me this is fake ????

i really, really, really hate to be the the bearer of bad news, especially for someone i didn't really know (but REALLY wish i did). i wish i could tell you that it isn't true, but she really did pass. here is the closest thing to confirmation i could find. we all miss her lots, especially her funny comments and endless support for the snk fandom.

[tiredeyes-and-lonelynights]

God dammit I fucking miss you. I went to put on my old shoes the other day. As I was tying them I realised the laces were still the way you made them three years ago. I never changed them because I couldn't remember how to make them look like that. I hits me at the most unexpected times that you're gone and I fight back the tears. It doesn't feel real yet. I don't know what I'm doing and all I want is to talk to you again. I miss you Alida. So fucking much. You weren't supposed to leave before me.

[but-a-ghost-in-our-arms-blog]

So. Onto my 20th lap around our celestial anchor body.

This year has really been full of ups and downs. Overall it's been great and really enjoyed it, I've felt like life can actually be good, but certain events threatened to send me spiraling down again. Studies have been coming along well, I've just been immersing myself in them, learning makes me happy for the most part.

Alida's death will forever leave a hole in my heart though, it's going to be tough next year when the university year starts up again and she isn't there like she planned to be, the best always fade away before their time. Not a day passes where a tear isn't shed.

It's put a new perspective on my life though, maybe it could be said that over the past year or two that who I truly am has taken a backseat, but no more. I've realized what people treasure more than some well-raised intelligent boring-ass white kid is someone who really knows who they are and what they stand for. Well, now I can say that I've faced almost all of life's curveballs, and I'm still here. So bring the rest of it the fuck on.

[most-powerful-soldier]

It's been two months since that really gay day... and for the past two days i've been dodging the subject because i just can't feel like celebrating without Alida. I'm just fucking reeling from the pain again right now.... she was supposed to be here... Alida you're supposed to be here celebrating with us. Why aren't you here now? I miss you and why aren't you here now? I'm just... fuck i need some time...  

[cezhouism]

IM CRYING SO HARD CAUSE MASTER ALIDA'S MOM AND ME ARE CHATTING IN FB RN AND HER MOM IS SO KIND AND STRONG AND SO pOSITIVE

AND HER MOM SAID THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO SURPRISE MASTER ALIDA ON HER BIRTHDAY A TRIP TO JAPAN 

bUT NOW......................

crying