Lucky
When ever I begin to feel uneasy I will react by instinct, not thoughts. I'm starting to realize this when ever something bothers me. But more importantly I find that I turn to my best friend a lot, it's never a direct "Hi, I could possibly feel like shit in the next few minutes, I think we need to hang out". It's more of a "yo you wanna eat"? Having someone to turn to, & knowing that someone will be there through anything is the best safety net in the world as well as support system. Our foundation for our friendship is so strong and never for a second do I take it for granted. I always think how lucky I am to have someone there that can understand basically every part of me. I'm constantly reminded by my friends how shitty their friends are and how they wish they had more reliable people in their life and just someone they could talk to when they needed it. And every time that happens, I just think of my best friend. My life is full of adventure, change, risks, obligation, creativity and fast-paced stuff but sometimes I just feel like I need to chill out. Hanging w/ my best friend is like a breath of fresh air.
He's honestly a better friend to me than I am to him. I am lucky, super lucky.