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theater is such an expensive hobby damn maybe i'm glad i'm just surface level lmao?

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guys i cant stop crying after e lucevan le stelle, vereinsamt and through the glass i'm going crazy

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tagged by @michiruze!! thank you so much or the tag!!!

6 songs on repeat (gosh! i'm trying to pick something that's more like of all time but maybe i'll do 3 all time 3 recent??):

chappell roan - good luck, babe! (definitely recent and something i can't get out of my head like this is soooooo regina george x cady heron core)

laufey - above the chinese restaurant (100% criminally underrated laufey song)

reneé rapp - snow angel (girl who hurt you?)

aurora - running with the wolves (never go wrong with this tho)

florence + the machine - too much is never enough (i swear to god like why's every single final fantasy song is like a fucking banger??)

mitski - your best american girl (thinking about my ocs rosetta and eloise in mind)

tagging (no pressure tho!!): @hippotooth @turtleduckmocha @toomado @lauxantille and i guess everyone who also want to do it? i hope you guys don't mind hehe. thank you!

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no love, however brief, is wasted

i can proudly say that i have filled up 1 drawing per month template this year and 6 of them are colored per last year's goal!!

(template by ssmt_turb)

this year has been a really overwhelming year for me in terms of drawing as my hobby. there's a lot of things that i never experience before prior to this year. i feel like i've been extremely productive and i've been learning extremely fast this year. looking back at it, i do feel like all of this might be happening way too fast. i've never really experience things like this before, so much growth in such a short time. the fauna brain rot is too real (tm). i could never imagined being so so so inspired by just 1 person. here's a toast for fauna and asagi-sensei. i couldn't have done this without having you both as my oshi and muse and inspiration.

to be honest, i still don't know what to make of all this. sometimes i feel proud about it, but most times i feel burdened by it. i'm still trying to find what i should feel about all this and how to deal with it. but i guess that's my problem for next year. i think for the first time in my life i realize a lot of things i previously didn't realize. maybe i do yearn to go back to how it was, when i lived in blissful ignorance. but alas, it is what it is.

but anyway, i think i still want to go back to my roots. i love drawing and i enjoy creating. i would never call myself an artist tho, but i love to draw still. i love the joy of creating and every single step of it. the best part of drawing is when i fill the space with repeated lines, that's the most fun part and i would do it over and over again.

it wouldn't be as fun however, without people to share it with. and i don't want to lose that, ever. there are times when i cried because i realize despite me being like this, people still interact with me. i cried and cried and cried maybe days i cried like this. thank you everyone for being patient with me, for teaching me how to improve in doing one of the things that still make my life worth living for.

and of course, of course, thank you for sharing this journey with me. thank you for fauna, my oshi, i genuinely never thought i would reach this far!!!!!!! for all my friends, mutuals and strangers i met along the way, thank you for letting me share my creation with you. thank you for being so incredibly kind and accepting about it. thank you for giving me a chance to show my ideas and fan arts. without someone to share my work with, i will feel incredibly empty.

i hope i never forget the joy of crafting and sharing and be who I am regardless of everything.

cheers, and may 2024 be kind to all of you.

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sometimes i think tim tam is go the distance and marie is defying gravity

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MELON IS BANNING ME FROM TWEETING SO YOU ALL WILL SEE CLEAN CRISPS 3D IDOL KIRIN IN THIS HELL SITE INSTEAD FROM MY BLOG

I WANT TO SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP DO YOU UNDERSTAND I LOST IT SAUR BAD AT RISE

COUNCIL FOREVER💚💙🤎❤️💛

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get to know me better tag meme

@turtleduckmocha hi thank you so much for the tag omg i rly didn't expect it but it made me rly happy!!!!!!

Rules: answer all the questions, then tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

Three ships: karehika (always forever my brain rotting otp that pushed me to the absolute edge of my drawing abilities), claudegard (bisexual rights! some "het" ship hv rights and this is the one), whiteraven/lenabel (PLEASE EVERYONE READ NEVERMORE WEBCOMIC!!)

First ship: setsufeldt (very classic, very junior high romeo)

Last song I listened to: heaven - niall horan

Last movie I watched: just checked my letterboxd and it's uhh infinity pool (2023). i still need to watch cocaine bear (2023) tho?

Currently Reading: i don't read books but my manga reading list is looking like spy x family, jojolands, witch hat atelier, oshi no ko, fumetsu no anata e, kakegurui, gekkan shoujo nozaki kun, the way of house husband, black butler

Currently Watching: shadow and bone s2 (just finished)

Currently Consuming: garret chicago popcorn

Currently Craving: gyukaku milk pudding, tom sushi

tagging: no pressure but please anyone on my dashboard who wants to do it :D and also maybe @lauxantille @asakurahiguchi @michiruze ? but please no pressure hehehe (sorry if i bothered you guys with the tagging tho)

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crawling out of the sewer

hi, this blog so far has been only about posting random drawings i did in hopes of (digitally) archiving it.

originally, i do have side blog for (re)blogging but recently i've gotten very (VERY) tired of blocking porn bot on both of this blog and the other one. so i was just thinking whether to just have one blog for like both purpose... this means i have i have to be diligent with tags (LOL) but that's my problem LOL.

but i was just about to say if any of you follow me for the drawing purpose only, feel free to unfollow in case this blog just kinda gotten too much (?) but feel free to stay as well ofc! i appreciate it hehe. my interests should line up with my drawings tho so i don't think it'll change much?

anyway idk why i made this post i guess just to ramble but also to put some kind of mark of like end of an era thingy i guess... cheers tho!