I did a test to figure out my predominant doshas and the one which is waaay over-charged is Vata: the air/ether element which is not very surprising tbh. And it's confirmed for me how important being grounded is. I think of all the reasons why I could be here, being present on earth in this moment is the most important. And I need to stop beating myself up for being an air-head, and for coming up against all of these spiritual blocks. I need to forgive myself for not being some great spiritual master at the age of 18 and just accept that if it's meant to happen, it will. If not, then that means there are more important, more beneficial things for me to learn here. It means I planned differently for myself and that's ok. I have eternity to be a spiritual master. I have eternity to be anything I want to be. And so I'm going to focus on what I want NOW. What I feel NOW. Focus on NOW instead of "when" "what if" "maybe someday" etc If my higher self wanted me to face spiritual perils, to spend most of my time out of this realm and in astral or faerie, then I would have just existed there instead. I’m on earth because I’m meant to be here: Because I planned this. What is so damn beautiful about the universe is that we are all exactly where we are meant to be in this present time. Everything has been planned and taken care of. I will go where I need to go and to truly know that is such a beautiful feeling.