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--"i miss someone i haven't seen personally, someone who don't know me, someone who is so far from me, i miss that guy named ___, the guy whom i've wanted so much, the guy who is in love with someone who is also in love with him. I just miss him the man that i wanted so much to be a part of my life. It is a kind of miss that i really want him to be a part of me and i can wait for that day, i don't care if i'd miss you everyday, i don't care if it'll took me forever to miss you. If we're not made for each other you'll always have a tiny place in my heart. I dunno if i'm saying this right, i don't know if it's too early to say this, but i guess it doesn't matter how long have i fallen for you if i felt it then that's it, i'm deeply in love with you. ♥"

*j.fort

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-- "you never know how badly it hurts to love someone so much and they never even cares. you look stupid they look cruel. You do everything to get their attention but they act as if you're nothing. It was just like, you're more than the air, because they can't see the air but they can feel it, and you? they can't see you nor feel you. You seem to be so desperate but you can do nothing, you loved that person and no matter how many times you try to move on, you can just found yourself going back repeating the stupid steps again. I know how you feel, because that's the way I feel, no matter how I try to walk away, I just can't I may not think of you for how many days now at the end of the time this little voices on my mind seems to be whispering your name, and i just can't help but to imagine your face, imagine you're here with me, imagine that you are mine. And those imaginations will knock me down again, because it is just painful to think that what i've been imagining of is my dream, because you are my dream, and maybe all i can do is to imagine, i don't think it'll come to life. but there's this little hop in me, that i'll do everything to be where you are today. I just wanna see you, hold you, take a picture with you and maybe we could fall in love and all -- because one of what i used to dream of is to marry you someday. Maybe i'm just fooling myself. But as what they say, we gotta get up and try, maybe it'll work, and never let it go if you never had a day without thinking about it. then wish me the best.

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dear jmgf,

he is my dream guy, i want him only him. I don't know when will i'll be with him, i don't know if he'll like or what. But I do believe that it will be 'us' i believe that we're meant to be. Call me fool, stupid, delusional or whatever. I bet if you'll loved someone so much even the smartest person goes crazy too. Maybe that's how magical love is, it is mysterious, it is weird, it makes us strong, it makes us brave, it makes us believe that impossible can be possible. And that's how much I love you. I believe we can be, I don't care if it will be in this world or in the other I know there is you and me. I'll go wherever you are right now, i'll strive hard, and you never know, you're one of those people who keeps me going, I just hope that while i'm doing everything to get there, i hope you're also waiting. see you so soon bby. i love so much♥

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'i love you and i'm so sorry for making your life harder because of that.'

I'm a girl who falls in love too deeply, i sometimes becomes clingy and too possessive. I don't know why, but it just happen. I've been loving this guy for a year already and i just can't move on, i didn't even saw him personally (yea, i'm in love with someone i haven't saw yet), he doesn't know me, and it's near to impossible for him to like me, but darn, i'm so in love with you, i just can't seem to moved on, i don't want to entertain anyone else and i still do believe that there'll be this day that we're gonna meet each other.

This is the worst thing about me, i fell in love too much, i give too much that nothing left for myself and i'm afraid that at some point in time it will be hard for me to let go of them and it'll make their life hard enough. For me there's nothing about loving someone too much, well in fact if it's harder in your part that someone loves too much and they just can't let you go, then it'll be the hardest on the part of someone who loves you because they just can't win you back, no matter how they want too. And the sad fact is, most of us belongs to that someone who loves too much. :(

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pucca bb♥

Is it alright to still love someone who is in a relationship already? I guess it's not, for as long as you wont make a move for them to broke or whatsoever. Hi to you mr. 'Pucca' (we used to call him pucca because he got this very chinito eyes like of pucca lels *silly) uhm. You know what, the day that I saw you I never thought would be same date that i'm gonna fall for you. darn, i can't believe that love at first sight might be true, and you made me realized that it is. I guess I like you, I like you so much like uhhm I'm willing to wait for you even though you got your girlfriend. I know you're in love with her and you will never notice me, but i'll be here if ever you need me (although you don't know me yet, we can be friends! c:) I'm not obsess with you i'm just in love. -.- I like you that even though I wouldn't see you anymore, my mind will never forget you face although I've seen it for 3 times only for as long as I got your picture i'm fine with it. I will never forget your voice though i've heard only once. And i'll go wherever you are as long as I can, just to see you hmm (maybe i'm slightly obsess LOL) but in a healthy way. Because of you my mood changes from bad to good or good to bad most often. I like you that I got this wishful thinking that you and I we're meant to be, and I like you that I hope you could read this and realize that i'll be waiting till the day that your girlfriend will leave you and you will run next to me and i'll comfort then will be together forever. gaaad i'm getting schizo typal already.oh well. ciao.. je t'aime pucca! ♥

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:'(

"Do you really like him?" -- This questions has been asked to me for how many times. And I was like, what's wrong with that? they say he's not that uhm (you know what i mean) to cry on and the fact that I've seen him only once and fell for him on that day and so on, then how could I loved that guy that fast, well I myself didn't know how could that be, The question is why me (again), and why to him? Did I done something wrong to someone to deserve such pain? and When the heck am I going to experience that happiness when it comes to loving someone???! --I know this questions will left unanswered for my entire life, I'm tired of figuring it out. Boy, lemme sleep now, i'm tired of getting sleepless nights just because of the stupidest thing I used to do and that is to think of you, i'm tired of the drama , i'm tired of getting hurt and all. Please, I don't wanna be trapped again. You're happy and in love while i'm alone and lonely, how fair isn't it? *sigh :|

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votre amour

The late reaction feeling grrr. I thought i'm alright, I thought it would be that easy for me to move on and just accept the fact that we can't be together. I thought, the way that i easily fell for you would also be that easy to fall out of love. So I got a news something about him, friend says that he has his girlfriend already and I got a little mad, then after few hours i'm already fine (fast and furious baby). I told everybody that I'm moved on, then again I was wrong, I caught myself stalking the girlfriend and him. I found myself blank staring thinking I hope it would be me being with him, holding his hands, sending sweet text messages with each other and all. Goooooosh. I never thought of being this miserable just because of this guy that I've seen for once, how could that be? Dearest lil' cupid you failed again, you hit me a thousand times without hitting the guy that I've been falling for urgh. Sometimes I just wanna quit (no i mean I'm quitting already). For my entire life I have been the one who keeps on chasing, when will the time comes, wherein they'll be the one to put the effort on? :O So i'll start to burn the bridges and build up the walls again (it's hard to fall in love after you've been hurt for consecutive times uhh). All I wanna do is to go faaaaar from this place and just forget everything (including my self?) hmm. Dear Mr,

I don't know what you did to me, to make me fall in love with you, you made me even realized that I went to the wrong school all this time, because if I would've chosen the right one, maybe we're together now,you made me hope for the hopeless-est thing forever and that was ''we're made for each other". You made me stupid, you brought misery into my life, and I know you know nothing about it, but indeed you made me love you and somehow been inspired for (how many days only) I just wanna say congratulations, I hope you'd be happy with her, but I guess you'll be at your happiest with me and I hope your relationshit with her will end so SOON! ♥

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tragedy

Guess what happened today? I've been wanting to say too many here, but i guess only few words will come out from mouth (well not literally) gosh. Now tell me, what would you do if the one you want the most will never be yours, that moment when you're still tring to get back up, but it immediately knocks you down, and I was just like, i don't want to stand up anymore I would still stumble over and over again, so what's the point? I'm trying to move on, but i know i can't do it now, I wanna cry but tears can't fall, i don't know why, maybe anger, jealousy and loneliness invades me. It isn't right for me to feel this way but i just can't even... When love hits you, even the strongest will get weak. I don't know anymore, what's the plan? I can't think clearly now, i'm not alright. I wanna go out and be hysterical, I wanna drink all the whiskeys if I could till I couldn't remember anything, inject all the anesthesia's in my spine so i could not feel anything, so i could just sleep there and i hope a magic potion will pour into my head and woke up remembering nothing. I can't see the reason why do we have to meet certain pals in our life, to get lessons? to get blessings? or maybe for us to get stronger as they walk away... no matter how we want them to stay. **