Stubborness && Pride. Once in a while it surfaced, only when
certain topics were spoken of. And it always inevitably ended up
pushing people away or ending in heated arguments. Apologies
were always worse. Something that struggled to push its way
from her throat.
“I am … trying here Wanda.” She knew it wasn’t good enough,
that the other deserved better. Perhaps this was why relationships
were … difficult— to say the LEAST. “I am sorry though. I thought
I had control, I thought I had it all in my hands. I was trying to, keep
us all from breaking beyond repair … I FUCKED up. ”
an angry red welt circles her throat, the exact place the shock collar had been placed. a bruise the size of africa is still a threatening dark blue where it sits just above her right hip. she’s stopped looking in MIRRORS because all she sees looking back is the places people have hurt her. touched her. the brunette shivers slightly, her body still getting aftershocks despite the fact that it’s been several days since the collar was pried off of her.
her eyes are dead, shoulders thinner than before and hanging low. every inch of her screams ‘i C A N ’ T handle any more’. wanda knows that it’s borderline cruel to blame natasha, but the part of her that is still locked in that cell can’t bring herself to care. “repair,” she speaks in a hoarse whisper. “i don’t think i can ever be repaired.”