Just a little something, I wanted to get off my chest.
I see a lot of posts saying "fuck 2014" and what not, but you know, it wasn't so bad for me. I felt like there was a lot of improvement in my life during the last year. In 2013, my parents divorced and I had a boyfriend that didn't really give a fuck about me. He made me feel lonely even when I was with him and constantly flirted with other girls. He kinda shat on my self esteem. Last year, I went on more dates than I had ever done in my life. Sure, it wasn't successful and they either said I wasn't ideal for them, or they went back to their exs, but at least I tried. It sucked being heart broken but I learned that I can be selfish, treat myself to nice things, and try my best to do better. I couldn't remember how to socialize with people, so relearning it was a challenge, but I met so many beautiful, wonderful, talented people, and I'm honored that people were still willing to be friends with me despite lack of interactions. I sought out counseling during my school year for my depression, and my grades improved along with my relationship with my mom. It was kinda a bummer I cried on my birthday like last year because of my ex, but I'm glad I had friends I can cry to. I have learned I am allowed to feel emotions instead of bottling them up like when I was a kid. Thank you guys for being there for me, becoming friends with me, accepting me even though I'm a stubborn awkward person. Thank you so much for making me feel less alone.
