I’ve never felt such a need for an anonymous outlet, but being in the midst of a global pandemic changes everything.
Does anyone even use tumblr for any kind of writing anymore? Feel free to keep scrolling, otherwise, welcome to my world. The one place where I can be myself and be alone with strangers, which I miss so much. It doesn’t feel natural to have my world shrunken to the four walls of my living room for so long. I should be happy, and grateful I don’t have to commute everyday, but that means I’m stuck here. With them. A lover and a friend. (2 separate people). But at what point am I choosing this misery and loneliness? When am I gonna grow a pair and start doing the things I want and making my life more like the one I picture in my head and yearn for? What is wrong with me that I am so stuck right now? Stuck in this house, this relationship, this job, this school… just stuck.