#sam blogging

[samwinchesterscollegediary]

It feels so surreal to be sitting in the Library, smacks spread out on the table, laptop and a bunch of Books spread out in fromnt of me, mingled with notes and pens…

I‘m writing my first college essay!

Sure, its a bit stressful and a bit exhausting, but the best kind of!

Its hard to describe, its not that it feels right, more like it feels… normal. Or what will become normal soon.

I cant wait for that!

[samwinchesterscollegediary]

I just spent four hours trying to submit a paper but my Laptop couldn't handle the file size.

How come I can log into the stranged databases and research the wildest stuff and my computer is all fine but the second I have a document with one (1) picture in it that's too much?

A completely different kind of stress than what I was used to, not gonna lie.

[samwinchesterscollegediary]

I didnt think this would happen, but i actually just cried over an assignment today. Fast forward twenty minutes later i had it finished.

Its so weird to think i was stressing about it so hard just a moment ago. Like it was the end of the wirld, even thought it could be so much worse. Actually it used to be so much worse, like, this is my dream life! I worked hard for this.

And yet i’m sitting in my dorm alone with a tearstained pillow and i’m thinking that my brother would make fun of me for it if he knew. And i know that would make it worse, but kinda better too?

I dont know, i guess i’m just tired and overthinking it. Maybe i should go to bed.