i’m just rambling
It’s almost been a year since I tried to kill myself and since then so.. so much has changed and even though mentally and physically everything has gotten worse, somehow i’ve gotten much stronger and I have learned so much... idk as bad as this sounds, when i first started getting really sick i accepted my death? i took so many risks this year and honestly continued to travel + go to concerts when my health said no and it taught me so much about life and my values and about my mentality and that every fucking second here matters so every second i spend in pure joy and peace and love because those are the emotions of highest viberations and life should not be lived focused on negative emotions like jealousy and hate and fear... i chose to let go of my sense of self because at my core i am just stardust; same as EVERYTHING around me, so my ego is essentially irrelevent because it separates me from the universe surrounding me when separation just.. doesn’t exist.
