#sedated fic

[planetadrian]

sedated (drag me away from this)

my medical trauma angst phm fic is now up on ao3!!

Summary:

The first time he feels the terror, he doesn't understand why. As he barely hangs onto consciousness, the soft silicon presses against his face, enveloping his nose and mouth. The spark of terror catches fire in his chest and quickly spreads across his body. It ignites a screaming inferno within his skull. He forces his eyes open. Everything is red. There's shapes above him. Pure oxygen fills his airways, stale and clinical and familiar and wrong. Grace's memories of his unwilling medical sedation and forced sacrifice return, vivid and violent. Later, on the journey back to save Rocky, he has night terrors. The thin lines between consciousness, unconsciousness, memory, and nightmare blur.

ao3 tags below the cut:

Fandom:Project Hail Mary (2026), Project Hail Mary - Andy Weir Relationships: Ryland Grace & Rocky

Characters: Ryland Grace, Rocky (Project Hail Mary)

Additional Tags: Angst, Nightmares, Medical Trauma, Autonomy Trauma, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, some Hurt No Comfort, Canon - Book & Movie Combination, Movie canon mainly with some book details, Ryland Grace Has a Bad Time, Ryland Grace is a Leaky Space Blob, Ryland Grace Is Not Graceful, Ryland Grace Whump, canon typical medical and autonomy trauma but the focusing on it is what makes it worse, Sedation, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Panic Attacks, Mentioned Eva Stratt, Mentioned Carl (Project Hail Mary 2026), Mentioned Yáo Li-Jie (Project Hail Mary), Mentioned Olesya Ilyukhina, Worried Rocky (Project Hail Mary), Memories

[planetadrian]

Please, friend, could you spare us some sedated fic chapter 2 excerpt (or vibe)? 🥺 We hunger for that deliciously angsty food

oh friend you know not what you ask for lol

I was debating what excerpt to share of the draft but since you asked for angst I shall deliver a more angsty excerpt. Within chapter 2 of sedated, I've been exploring Grace's memories of his experiences immediately after waking up from the coma. Since I'm operating off of the movie canon, I get to have a lot of freedom with the missing spaces of scenes. Frankly, sometimes I felt like I was going too far with the medical trauma/whump I was writing. Suffice to say, I'm going to have to put some hefty warnings in the chapter's author's note.

This excerpt from the draft is on the lighter end of the angst spectrum of the whole scene, set a little while post-reuniting with Rocky, on the way to Erid (cw: mentions of self harm):

The next time Grace goes to bed, he lays awake for a long time. Rocky's presence above his head helps, but his mind still wanders back to the cameras. How many of his worst moments were caught and sent back to Earth? Why the heck didn't he scrub through the footage? If he wants, he could find out. He could just go over to the monitor and look at the folders of video files right now. Or maybe wait until Rocky's next sleep to do it privately. It's fuzzy when he thinks back on it. The situation he'd awoken to had been so overwhelming, especially to a mind as scrambled as his was. He'd hurt himself, he thinks. After the reality of how far away and alone he was finally set in, he'd felt like he was drowning.  He'd done the math on how long it'd take to get home, and he'd remembered the Petrova line. He didn't know why or how he was so far away, he only knew that he'd been a teacher, the sun was dying and that he was alone. He'd screamed and panicked and cried, pressing the heels of his hands into his skull as hard as he could until he'd gone numb.

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[planetadrian]

i'm sorry grace for the medical whump i am putting u thru in chapter 2 of sedated, oh my god

[planetadrian]

managed to write about 1.8k for sedated's chapter 2 today :)))