little rant/ramble under the cut here about my main oc and my inablity to draw him correctly
i DONT like drawing my main oc i draw seek and CRY because he never looks right. I see him in my brain i know what he looks like but there's something that prevents me from putting him on paper and i have absolutely no idea what it is.
Art from 2024. like this is the most seek ive ever been able to draw him but its NOT him. his nose is wrong and his face is not that round and his expression is a lot goofier.
what is it thats escaping me this ISNT HIM its too boyish hes too round too square.
this is him more but its a bit too serious for him
opposite problem now hes too thin hes not round enough
I dont know what it is. I would change his design but he's so ingrained in my mind in such an abstract way i wouldnt even know what id be changing. It's been like three years and he hasnt left my brain ive literally never had an oc who lasted this long before him usually theyd only stick for a few days. if i knew he was going to stay in my brain i wouldve put effort into actually understanding his appearance when i first made him but no i didnt because he was a joke character.
he makes expressions like harold lloyd ig but he doesnt really look like harold lloyd??? i dont know I DONT KNOW i want free i want out of this self made prison argh