May 18, 2025
My mother dropped by (lovingly after her prayer meeting with DE for my apartment as I saw a larder beetle ☠️) with her anxiety ridden dog (rightfully so as he has never had proper training and behavioural pees everywhere) Billy, (who I do love), but in spite, I must turn my phone off all day tomorrow. Do not reach me in my tower. Sunday is mine & I will sit with the Lord.
#mineorme#thoughts#personal#help#lmao#family#I babysat my niece this morning#I love her#and FaceTimed my older sister#and texted my little sister#and fed my younger brother & neice lunch#and texted my older brother#I spoke to my dad yesterday#I feel like my head is going to fall off#tranquility pls#peace please#I did this to myself#why do I go all out and then nothing#agh#balance pls#she talked of a new lawn man#seemingly interesting#i asked her how she was#she said okay#I asked again she said okay how are you#I can’t help but feel she’s a little girl inside#and my father a little boy#and I crave to be away from them#yet crave their presence immensely#family is all that matters to me I feel