C: I feel like I’m the token black girl to my black guy friends, in the sense that I’m a very down to earth person and humble, so I speak my mind and out on many topics that I’m able to touch on, but I feel like I’m the black girl they wouldn’t date but have as a close friend or homie based on my looks. The girls they come to me about are either Hispanic, non black, or so called “look mixed”. One of the guy’s I see as a big brother while the other one I’d like to go out with. Whenever it’s just me and the one that I like, I wonder if he actually likes me, but I’m scared to hear “You’re not my type” again. It actually hurts when black guys say that because I’m not light enough or look like I’m “mixed” 😔. He tells me I’m cute and stuff but I just don’t believe it when it’s coming from him. I have my natural hair out now, he’s never seen me with something in my hair before, I already know once I do he’s gonna be all over me wanting to hangout more 🙄, I was just tryna see who could love me for me with my natural hair and all 😕. I’m still me either way, guys just need to realize that I am not my hair, it shouldn’t matter what hair I have in my head or just my own, idk just my thoughts lately.
