Please tell me if this is selfish of me?.
I feel validated when I help people, I don’t like to rock the boat for fear of a fight breaking out. I like making people smile To know I’ve done something right and that I have the opportunity to make someone elses world a brighter place if even a little.
I don’t know my psychologist old me “I have no right to help everyone, and that my desire to feel validated by helping other is selfish. Since you have a motive and it isn’t kindness for kindness sake, but kindness for recognition. I don’t quite understand what she meant, I left nearly crying because kindness is the pillar of who I have become. I don’t know how to really process it, I second guess myself a bit so I was wondering what peoples opinions were.
I am not the type of person that’s like “Hey I was nice to you now recognize how nice I am or boast.(I really don’t like to boast, with the one exception if I am being a playful brat. But even then I’m not really a fan of it at all.) But I just feel like I am alive, that I am slowly finding my worth in the world if that makes sense. I really dislike being the centre of attention, I don’t really know how to take compliments. I like making people smile because it makes me feel nice. But anyway what’s everyone’s thoughts on this?.