hi so I saw your art of gojo being a snow leopard and the kids being hybrids too and Not sure if you knew or if it was intentional that snow leopards never get close to their own kind and are solitary animals but they apparently still try to communicate with each other and it fits perfectly for him. But I absolutely love your art and I just wanted to talk to you about it 🫶🏾
I love that bit! It didn’t cross my mind that snow leopard are solitary animals and it does fit him! A lot people depict him as snow leopard. That’s why I drew him as one c:
The fact that snow leopard still try to communicate (keyword:try) with others gave me some ideas to doodle…
Just a little idea that snow leopard!Gojo trying to drop hints that he wants to be left alone or mb he’s overstimulated, but the kiddos keep following him …he doesn’t know what to do with them so he runs away
Hi ani, I just wanted to say that I’m happy and proud of your decision to leave and protect your peace. In the amount of time I’ve spent talking to you I was always wishing and praying the best for your health, happiness and peace. When we started talking, it started out as only talking about your writing but you are so much more than your fics and I’m glad that you and I got to connect deeper than what shows we were obsessing over at the time.
I also wanted to explain a little bit about my own absence. I haven’t been active on here lately and probably won’t ever again due to some rough times going on but I saw that you made this decision and I just wanted to give you some support and kindness because I can imagine how people are responding to this in your inbox.
I wish you all the best in life, school and whatever the future holds for you 🤎
seraphina, my beloved. it's always a gift to hear from you. thank you so so much for being such a kind person. getting to connect with you outside of fanfiction was always my favorite part and really reminded me why community is important. like this really was my third place.
i'm sorry to hear that you haven't been doing too well. that's upsetting to hear, but i don't mind lending an ear if you wanna talk to me on another platform. i'm wishing you the best because you deserve it.
i've mostly stopped getting annoying inboxes a while ago and even if they kept coming it would make me dig my heels in the sand further. it was really emotional letting it come to this because of missing ppl like you but that's okay. everything eventually comes to an end and moving on is good.
wishing you tons of good luck and vibes in your academic, professional, and personal endeavors. you deserve it <3
Sorry for taking 10 days to answer I’ve been fighting for my life in school :/
I’m happy to have you back, I hope you start to feel more comfortable with your blog again and if not then I hope you will take all the time you need until you feel comfortable with what you feel you need or want to do
I actually managed to get a whole book of recipes from my grandma. I would like to ask if you have a preference or any allergies? If you’re vegan or vegetarian? I’ll send you some recipes I have with instructions. Speaking of which, I developed an allergy to fish even though I loved catfish :(
You remembered my spine ☺️. It’s doing much better now. I have a slight curve in my spine and it causes unalignment in my hips so over time it was getting more difficult for me to walk and stay on my feet for long. I am doing physical therapy but thankfully surgery isn’t on the table.
Not much dreaming for me lately. I did unfortunately have the worst nightmare of my life after watching the last of us tv show that I stopped watching it But I will get back to it at some point. Instead I started watching Poker Face, The sandman and rewatching MoonKnight :)
Sorry for taking 10 days to answer I’ve been fighting for my life in school :/
Take as long as you want, angel face. Time is an illusion and leap years exist.
I’m happy to have you back, I hope you start to feel more comfortable with your blog again and if not then I hope you will take all the time you need until you feel comfortable with what you feel you need or want to do
Thank you ;_; I hope so too because it's accounts like yours that make this site fun. Where else am I suppose to talk about characters that are way too old for me? 😣✨
I actually managed to get a whole book of recipes from my grandma. I would like to ask if you have a preference or any allergies? If you’re vegan or vegetarian? I’ll send you some recipes I have with instructions. Speaking of which, I developed an allergy to fish even though I loved catfish :(
Whoop whoop! Omg omg, it's happening. I don't have any dietary preferences or restrictions. Lay it on me. Also... oh man. That's to cruddy. How did that happen, if you don't mind me asking?
You remembered my spine ☺️. It’s doing much better now. I have a slight curve in my spine and it causes unalignment in my hips so over time it was getting more difficult for me to walk and stay on my feet for long. I am doing physical therapy but thankfully surgery isn’t on the table.
I hang onto your every word, babes. (I also have. tendency to remember nothing or everything that someone tells me. Brain fog or whatever the guy in Revelations was going on about.)
So happy for you that surgery is not something you have to worry about. I hope that your spine is more fair to you :(. I'm so happy to hear that you're doing better. Any foods you like on days where everything is going awesome with your spine (this is such specific questions, sorry. I didn't know how to segue properly)
Not much dreaming for me lately. I did unfortunately have the worst nightmare of my life after watching the last of us tv show that I stopped watching it But I will get back to it at some point. Instead I started watching Poker Face, The sandman and rewatching MoonKnight :)
Oh man. See that happened to me with the show Sabrina. Join the "I love scary stuff but my brain doesn't" club. Ooo Poker Face? I've never heard of that. Also, I'm gonna rewatch Moon Knight just to feel something.🏃🏾♀️💨
I didn’t want to send anything in because I didn’t know if you were opening your inbox for conversation or if you were just hanging around. It’s been a while since we’re spoken but I hope this new year is going good for you so far 🤎
Seraphina, my beloved. You’re so cute.
Over the weekend I was kind of feeling things out because I still didn’t know if I wanted to be back, so sorry if I sounded a bit off or distant at anytime. I’m feeling this weird sense of feeling like an imposter now since I haven’t been on here for so long.
I turned on my ask a while back when I thought I wanted to be back but I psyched myself out. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. But Im just gonna shake it off. I only turned off my inbox anyway because I was receiving asks which made me feel bad I wasn’t responding. On a brighter note, I went on a nice road trip so it’s not all doom and gloom.
Anyway, enough of my blabbering. (I just love talking to you). Thank you for wishing me a great new year! I wish you one as well. Also, how’s your spine by the way. Any new updates if you don’t mind me asking. And please tell me about any new dreams or recipes or old dreams and recipes. I haven’t talked to you in a bit.
Hey aniqua! You are such a sweetheart and I love and appreciate the support and words of encouragement during these times🤎
I’m doing better now, I’m finishing up some tests and it’s my spine that needs some fixing but I have loved ones support throughout it all and I still have to go through some recovery so I’ll be absent for longer than I thought and I know you said not to worry about being gone for so long but I just like checking in and making sure you’re okay.
You said you were moving around a lot more, so you mean like job wise, errands or life is just getting busier for you?
And about your allergies which I hope are doing much better now, have you ever done an allergy test or would think about getting one done? They don’t do them like they used to (which is poke and test out your back) but they just take blood nowadays if you’re not squeamish around blood
For dreams I’ve honestly been stuck on one dream and it was with a man but I can’t ever really remember his features but I can remember his build and his eyes. It’s the only dream I remember having for a while now actually and it’s just been reoccurring and it always stops in the same moment. It was like I was living the domesticated life with him and it was just multiple scenarios of what a married life would be.
Any reoccurring dreams or anything else going on with you that you’d like to talk about?
Hey aniqua! You are such a sweetheart and I love and appreciate the support and words of encouragement during these times🤎
Seraphina! You are literally such an angel. I'm happy I could even help a little bit with lifting your spirits.
I’m doing better now, I’m finishing up some tests and it’s my spine that needs some fixing but I have loved ones support throughout it all and I still have to go through some recovery so I’ll be absent for longer than I thought and I know you said not to worry about being gone for so long but I just like checking in and making sure you’re okay.
I'm really glad that you at least know the root of the problem now• and the fact that your loved ones are supporting you is amazing! I'm glad you just like checking in because I was getting worried that you were stressed about checking in and just find it fun ^_^
You said you were moving around a lot more, so you mean like job wise, errands or life is just getting busier for you?
To keep things vague for my privacy, all of the above. I'm in a constant state of shifting so imtrying to get use to that.
And about your allergies which I hope are doing much better now, have you ever done an allergy test or would think about getting one done? They don’t do them like they used to (which is poke and test out your back) but they just take blood nowadays if you’re not squeamish around blood
I have done an allergy test but I was like 17 when I did so and it was the one where you get a lot of shots. I'm glad to hear now you can do a blood test now because I don’t wanna be shot 70 times again!😫 I’m actually not squeamish around blood nor do shots terrify me so regardless I gotta figure out what caused me to have a reaction.
For dreams I’ve honestly been stuck on one dream and it was with a man but I can’t ever really remember his features but I can remember his build and his eyes. It’s the only dream I remember having for a while now actually and it’s just been reoccurring and it always stops in the same moment. It was like I was living the domesticated life with him and it was just multiple scenarios of what a married life would be.
Alexa, play Married Life from the Up Soundtrack. That sounds incredibly dreamy. I can only imagine the frustration when you return back to reality. I’m so happy that you have a dream hubby. It’s cuutteeeee
Any reoccurring dreams or anything else going on with you that you’d like to talk about?
I used to be amazing at lucid dreaming and remembering my dreams for 90% of my life but recently I’ve lost my ability to. :( I hope it comes back. In other news, I got injured so I'm. in bed alone. :|
Hey aniqua! I just want to apologize firstly because I said I was gonna get you some recipes but I unfortunately haven’t and won’t be very present on tumblr due to some medical issues but I’m moving forward with some support so it’s giving me some hope that everything will work out :) but I also wanna check in since I saw you had an allergic reaction so I hope you’re feeling better and everything is going good for you!
I do want to say that you’re an amazing writer and person. It’s been great interacting with you, I wish you all the best and I’ll be stopping back in soon to make sure you’re doing okay and I definitely will come back with some food ideas for you to try 🤎
no! seraphina, please! I cannot stress this enough; please don't feel like you need to be super active in my inbox and constantly engage with me. it's perfectly normal and healthy to dip for weeks or even months on end without an explanation. so many of my moots and friends do that and I will always be here ready for you anytime!!! so don't feel the need to apologize! especially if it's for medical reasons! are you okay? how are things? geez I feel so bad that I didn't check in with you since you were sick two inbox messages ago ;_; also, I definitely have hope with you because it will definitely work out ^_^
I'm feeling better. I'm moving about a lot in new places so my body is just super confused. I still don't know what triggered it but I have benadryl on me 24/7 now. And I had to take it again because I got dust all in my eye.
And I also wanna say you are a heaven-sent mutual. It's literally so fun to talk to you periodically because I always know it's going to be filled with relief and peace. I wish you the best and I feel like now I need to set up a calendar to remind myself to harass your inbox (I will). Thanks for checking in. Jesus, you're so sweet. And don't feel pressured to rush with the recipes. Take your time! I will always be here for you <3
P.S question for you: have any interesting dreams or daydreams lately that you care to share?
Now as for me I’ve been good, I’ve been trying some new things like Korean BBQ which is amazing and I would recommend
I’ve been more into sweets lately though, like ice cream Or elephant Ears like the ones you get at fairs and carnivals. I did however make a really good chicken Parm meal one night which I am proud of since I didn’t usually have time to cook. If you have any food recommendations I’d love to try really anything since I’ll have more time this summer
My music ranges a bit of everywhere honestly, I grew up with Michael Jackson who was honestly my first crush 😭
But I’ve been listening to Brent faiyaz, childish gambino, Drake, The internet, Doja cat and honestly I’ve been getting a little bit more into Harry styles, I only listened to Golden and adore you but I listened to his new album Harry’s house and my favorites have to be Late night talking and Matilda. I’d love to widen my music range if you have any suggestions?
Now I unfortunately have a problem with shopping/spending
I love to shop, I range in colors in mostly dark green, brown, and Lilac/lavender. I did get some pride converse shoes not too long ago which are probably my favorite pair of shoes
I have been looking for what to wear to a wedding and I’ve been eyeing this dress that’s in a really pretty dark green but I’m gonna go with the soft pink one I saw
Onto Obi-Wan, so actually I have not finished Obi-wan but so far I enjoy it, I’ve always been into Star Wars and even if you haven’t they kinda fill up the gaps and don’t really leave you too confused about past movies if you decide to watch it. Although i am a little biased because of my crush on obi-wan and I’m in love with his voice :/
I am unfortunately not the best at watching shows so I can’t recommend too much, I do however, watch umbrella academy, and I am currently trying to get back into stranger things and killing Eve
Now as for me I’ve been good, I’ve been trying some new things like Korean BBQ which is amazing and I would recommend
I have yet to try korean bbq and I just think it's criminal how im 20 and still haven't. What did you get and what do you recommend?
I’ve been more into sweets lately though, like ice cream Or elephant Ears like the ones you get at fairs and carnivals.
elephant ears??? I have literally-- *does a google search* oohh so it's like funnel cake but rolled flat. nice!
I did however make a really good chicken Parm meal one night which I am proud of since I didn’t usually have time to cook. If you have any food recommendations I’d love to try really anything since I’ll have more time this summer
I was literally going to ask you for some because I'm allll out of ideas. I've made dumplings, pasta and meatballs, salmon and such rice, but I want to make gratin de macaroni like I did once with my mom.
My music ranges a bit of everywhere honestly, I grew up with Michael Jackson who was honestly my first crush 😭
awwwwww, cute
But I’ve been listening to Brent faiyaz, childish gambino, Drake, The internet, Doja cat and honestly I’ve been getting a little bit more into Harry styles, I only listened to Golden and adore you but I listened to his new album Harry’s house and my favorites have to be Late night talking and Matilda. I’d love to widen my music range if you have any suggestions?
I feel like I just need to get into harry styles. it's nothing else but laziness. I was super into one direction and still am so I gotta support my day 1. I have listened to Sunflower on his other album and I really like it. And I hear As It Was everywhere and it's a bop.
Now I unfortunately have a problem with shopping/spending
dont we all >_<
I love to shop, I range in colors in mostly dark green, brown, and Lilac/lavender. I did get some pride converse shoes not too long ago which are probably my favorite pair of shoes
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PRIDE CONVERSE SHOEEESSSSS! YOU'RE SO FLIPPING CUTE. I love when I see people with their pride shoelaces, buttons, and keychains, and trinkets. I love that for you guys and it's just so *clenches fist* darn cute. Capitalism doesn't ever do anything right but the merchandizing they make for certain months for marginalized groups... I'm a sucker I fear. Have you gotten anything else pride related? The people are dying to know.
I have been looking for what to wear to a wedding and I’ve been eyeing this dress that’s in a really pretty dark green but I’m gonna go with the soft pink one I saw
oh my! i bet you'd look good in both. Honestly, I would go with the color that you'd like to wear the most after the wedding because nothing is worse than a dress you can only wear once
Onto Obi-Wan, so actually I have not finished Obi-wan but so far I enjoy it, I’ve always been into Star Wars and even if you haven’t they kinda fill up the gaps and don’t really leave you too confused about past movies if you decide to watch it. Although i am a little biased because of my crush on obi-wan and I’m in love with his voice :/
I know this sounds bad but I lowkey wanna watch obi-wan because I feel like the fics would hit. Other than that I am now convinced that I should watch it and I shall :D
I am unfortunately not the best at watching shows so I can’t recommend too much, I do however, watch umbrella academy, and I am currently trying to get back into stranger things and killing Eve
I haven't watched the season of umbrella academy and I feel so bad because I am not compelled in the slightest to do so. I feel like I'll give it time and eventually I will. I honestly just dont wanna watch 5 try to help the group just for no one to listen till the final episode XD
Hi aniqua, I’m so sorry that you’re going through this and it sounds like you’re going through it by yourself :(
I don’t have all the answers and I don’t know how to soothe you the way you want to be and I wish I could, but I can provide is a listening ear and I encourage an indefinite break from tumblr and anything related.
You have to come first before anyone and figure out what you want and what you want to write and what you need. I don’t want to make it sound like that’s so easy because it’s not and it takes time but that’s what you deserve. You owe no one this much worrying and stressing about wether your fics are good enough. I have sent my best friend your fics and like myself, have loved them, and I have evidence to prove it and I don’t doubt your followers love your works as well
Even reading fics or thinking about writing, if it’s causing stress or anxiety, step back.
And if anyone wants to get upset or pressure you about anything on your blog or in life, we call that Bitch Behavior. And that will be their title that they have to stand 10 toes on 🤷🏾♀️
Do things for yourself. For me, I had to at least try. Big things, little things, anything. Re-watch old tv shows, find new ones, try a new food or drink, find some comfort items, explore some new places around your area, reach out and spend time with loved ones. I completely understand doing this isn’t easy either and you honestly may not want to, we have responsibilities and things to do and it’s hard to reach out and we don’t have time to which sucks. All that being said, I’m sorry if I didn’t say what you needed or wanted to hear but I honestly want the best for you and you deserve the best, whatever that might be 🤎
hey, seraphina! It's kind of funny how accurate you are because I'm in a completely new environment at the moment and I physically can't even call or text my family or friends to complain, so it's a whole lot of bollocks.
I honestly don't expect you in any way shape or form to have the answers. I was just honestly ranting to myself and it was extremely helpful to scream into the abyss for a few minutes. And an indefinite break from Tumblr sounds so sexy at the moment but you know what is so sickening is I have to find a way to force myself to.
I never understood workaholics when I was younger because I would always be asked to work and study subjects I didn't like. But now that I'm studying a topic I like and have a hobby I love, fanfiction, I realized that I have become addicted to constantly producing content. I enjoy the initial feeling until it's like 4 AM, I'm tired, I have class the next day, I'm tired, and I still haven't done my laundry. >_<
but you make an incredible point. I need to take a brief exit. And thank you for sharing my fics! It means a lot to me! The thought of people enjoying what I have to put out is great. It's nice to know that at least someone is enjoying them. I really reached an all-time disdain of my fics this week because I posted a new fic, hated it the moment I reread it, hated it even more when I saw how many likes but little comments it got, hated it even further when I read my old work, then just grew even more annoyed when I couldn't throw a tantrum because I have roommates (they're really sweet, I swear). And then I became annoyed even more because once again, I don't know how to fix it, I don't know what fics I wanna write.
Yet, I take breaks so hard because I'm like, "so when are we gonna make something else??" Like I don't owe anyone my content and yet I act like I do. And this isn't just tumblr. I am a 20-year-old shaped by the idea from a young age that I'm only as good as what I produced and that sucks majorly! (the gifted program should be eradicated). I probably should probably set some form of rules for myself because I don't see myself as no longer writing since that genuinely makes me happy but I should definitely curate a form of rest that will fit me and my mental state at the moment (running to the drawing board) because not writing sounds like a punishment but with the way things are going for me, none of this is sustainable.
I probably should probably set some form of rules for myself because I don't see myself as no longer writing since that genuinely makes me happy but I should definitely keep myself from stressing about posting.
we call that Bitch Behavior. And that will be their title that they have to stand 10 toes on 🤷🏾♀️
Don't apologize at all for giving me some really nice advice! I hope that eventually I'lI get out of this rut and like my writing again and know what I want. I wanna go out more but I never know where to go and sometimes I don't even wanna move. I guess I should just go looking.
