#shawty's thoughts

[thesoftestmariposa]

Why is everything so hard and tough? The urge to just give into it all and quit.

[thesoftestmariposa]

Oh okay, you wanna act this way just because you're on the other side of the food chain, but joke's on you because it's not long before the tables turn.

[thesoftestmariposa]

Why's the work life like this????!!!

I'm not build for this😭😭😭

[thesoftestmariposa]

The love-hate relationship I have with my new job.

[thesoftestmariposa]

I don't really know why but i love stalking people's blogs. There's just some kind of energy, and the joy I find in it is profound.

Not only people's blogs but those who do vlogs or any kind of social media interaction or posting. Like yes... GIVE ME MORE.

Yes, tell me more about yourself. Yes, be vulnerable in front of that camera. Yes, pour your heart and soul out to others.

Allow me to dig deeper into your life. Allow me to experience you via the internet. That's another kind of intimacy we don't talk about.

Let me feel every bit of emotion through the screen without even toughing you or being in the same room as you.

I say this because I love seeing other people live their life to the fullest and not caring about what the haters might say. Truly..

[thesoftestmariposa]

want moots?

Yeah sure.

Why not.

[thesoftestmariposa]

A "Hey, I'm still here, even when you feel like I'm not!"... Would've been enough too. But I guess that's just me though.

[thesoftestmariposa]

I hate the fact that I talk so much. Well, only when I don't have my phone in my hand. But other than that, i talk on and on without end.

It gets to a point where you talk so much that you feel that other people find you annoying because you cannot shut up.

But when you are quiet, they talk as if it became a sport and you just sit there... Listening.

Sad stuff, honestly.

Well, in reality, I just need a yap buddy where both of us talk each other's heads off and when we do figure a way to stop talking..

We find new topics to discuss so that the cycle of deep conversation, laughter and emotion can be on display again.

Why match my freak when you can match my communication instead? Like hello?