#she li

[antropomorphine]

He Tian (when he’s fumbling MGS for the nth time) texting She Li to come get his arse kicked

[ant1theus]

parallels

[19daysonly]

English translation

Manhua: 19 days

Author: old_xian

Chapter 448

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[agostise]

“love me or hate me, both are in my favor. for if you love me i will always be in your heart; if you hate me i will always be in your mind.”

[… since] “the opposite of love is not hate…

… it is indifference.”

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[beneathitall-thesame]

I know OX mostly used She Li as a prop/villain to move things along, but I find juxtaposing his behaviour to Mo's interesting.

When he asks Mo if he can take the fall for one of his friend's underlings who got in trouble (while withholding the real reason the guy might get expelled: the fact that he sexually assaulted someone), Mo Guan Shan habitually sees through the bullshit and claims:

(chapter 178)

After all, what else can Mo expect from the guy who ‘saved’ him, only to cut him off from his peers and insist he owed him his life?

She Li goes on to say he'll give Mo a job at his family's bar if he's so worried about making money. Isn't that the reason he wants to drop out of school? To make money in order to lessen his mum's burden?

But, of course, nothing in this world comes without a cost and for She Li all relationships are transactional and/or predatory. What is the next most important thing for Mo? His pride/need for independence.

She Li wants to control that which protects him (and simultaneously isolates him further from possible help. Although what help, when adults in this story keep turning an eye towards bullying when it doesn't affect their image lol.) not so much as to become Mo's only source of any semblance of belonging and dependency so as to have Mo become an endless supply of entertainment. An easy-to-maintain caged pet he can poke and prod to obtain instant gratification (a gamut of emotions he can't seem to experience unless he projects onto others).

In a way, for someone like She Li, Mo is the perfect prey: tough and abrasive on the outside, insecure about his class status and very lonely behind that imperfect front. She Li senses how badly he actually wants connection and how much it hurts him to be betrayed. With Mo, who values dignity and defiance, humiliating him cuts the deepest. By turning Mo's self-made image upside down, She Li gets the rush of power he seems to crave.

The more Mo gets involved with She Li, the more people associate him with the delinquent persona they already arbitrarily have set in stone. The more humiliated Mo feels, the more he closes himself off from others and "willingly" walks into She Li's trap, if only because he hasn't got any other choice.

By the time the story starts, Mo apparently has either left the gang or kept She Li at a certain distance. Even so, as we have already seen, that hardly deters She Li from approaching him and laying his hands on him. Mo should resign himself to his fate. After all, She Li insists they two are one and the same; they should stick together as fellow outcasts.

(chapters 368/369)

It doesn't matter if you get expelled.

It doesn't matter if you get labelled a delinquent, just like your father.

As long as you're angry at the world (yourself), and uselessly struggle against it (yourself), you'll have a place here. Resist, and feed my need for control. Endure humiliation, get back up, feed my obsession.

She Li will go to considerable lengths to keep Mo in his clutches:

(chapter 338. She Li claims no one cares about Mo's "shit" except for him. What does he ask in exchange for this great favour? That Mo bring him a piece of his own flesh).

She Li doesn’t just want Mo’s life to implode so he can watch from the sidelines as Mo struggles to rebuild. What he craves is the suffering itself—yes—but suffering that turns Mo inward, back toward him, leaving no room for anyone else. He doesn’t just want Mo broken; he wants Mo broken and his to be 'used'.

Mo embodies some things She Li lacks: resilience before adversity, authenticity and an actual capacity for bonds. She Li can only perform and manipulate; his charm is skin-deep. As a child, he grew up weak with no protective figures or peers. Home is neglectful and emotionally abusive. When faced with his own pain, or rather his 'inability' to access/express his own suffering, he ends up externalising it (blaming the world/justifying his need to inflict pain and feeling it vicariously through others).

So, does he want to corrupt Mo and prove he is not actually strong? Ruin that which he envies so it doesn't exist? Keep him as a reliable supply of emotions he can't directly engage with?

(chapter 294)

Hurting others doesn’t restore what She Li has lost, yet he continues regardless, caught in a cycle of reenacting his own trauma and binding others into the same suffering.

[elaine19day]

Alright guys, I'm here today to address the pictures of the alleged 'new merch' that had been circling around in the English fandom for a few days. See how I said 'English fandom'? Because nobody really addressed it on weibo and XHS yet… at least not to that extent. (Sorry, I have seen these screencaps on tumblr, insta, X and discord, and I have no idea who originally took them, I don't claim to have taken those screenshots, merely providing them here so you know what I'm talking about.)

So what happened? A few days ago a random shop on taobao created new listings that offered a new series of badges and prints/acrylics - not just featuring the 4 main boys, but also He Cheng, Qiu, She Li and… Cun Tou…..?! Now let's take a moment and sit back and think about this for a while. First of all: Why would a random shop that's NOT affiliated with mosspaca in any way post new 'official' merchandise? (Because we can see there's the mosspaca copyright writing on the badges and acrylics, just like it used to be on the previous badge series) Why would this random shop post these things while neither OldXian herself nor her boss, moss, have posted or announced anything via weibo/XHS? Don't you think this is sort of fishy? You don't find this strange, you don't question that at all? Sure, some people said: It's leaked and it will be available on the upcoming signing event on the 29th which OX announced on her weibo. Sure. There is a possibility, of course. They could have a leak in mosspaca studio and some person got their hands on some undisclosed merch and decided to make bank by making a new shop and listing the items for pre-order, hoping they could cash in. NOT a smart choice if you wanna keep your job because such incidents get investigated thoroughly and we all know by now that moss himself is very strict about these things and already has taken legal action against shops before when they sell fake merch as official merch. The other possibility? Old Xian's apple account has been hacked by an outsider and then the same scenario as before applies - that person wanted to cash in before it officially releases.

Now. How has OX handled merchandise before? It was always announced before an event and sometimes even months(!) in advance when they were pre-order items. Also. Have you ever seen Old Xian making merch for Cheng, Qiu, She Li and Buzzcut? Sure, the first 3 have been on some old postcards way back in the day, plus they are depicted in some of the artbooks, okay. But actual merch with them separately? The last badge series had a very limited special edition button with He Cheng. That was super rare. And now OX suddenly makes merch of the 2 adults, plus She Li AND Buzzcut, who's a minor character which barely makes an appearance? (Sorry, Buzzcut fans, not trying to be mean, just wanting to drive home the point that OX creating merch of him is highly unlikely - unfortunately.)

So what can we take home from all the stuff I just pointed out? Yep, there is a high chance that this is not official. It might be fake merch, sold by a random person who used generative AI tools and editing skills to create these things. I mean, sure, some of the pictures look highly convincing, I give you that. But then again, there are fanartists out there who can perfectly mimic Old Xian's style and edit/draw the boys in new poses that make it seem 'real' and official. But then there's THIS. Please take a close look at the way the faces are 'drawn', the way that the eyes are sort of smudged, same as some of the abs, the way Mo's face is contorted in a weird angle, the way the hands look chunky and unreal, and so on. (click on image to enlarge it and see it in more detail)

Weird, right? Well, it's a very common, typical thing for pictures that are generated with free AI tools. Everyone who has tried one or the other and has fcked around with one of those tools out of curiosity will notice.

Also - have you noticed the sheer AMOUNT of things posted from this one random seller? 10 different badges, 12 different long bookmarks (acrylic boards?), 4 couple cards, plus a LOT of other random new things which all feature very old panels from the manhua… When has Old Xian ever released SO MUCH merch at once? Yep. Never. Plus the re-using of old pictures for new merch? Also doesn't make much sense. And there's a lot of the older illustrations being used for these supposed new things here.

So if you take all of this into account, you might conclude that someone is tryna pull your leg here, selling fake merch disguised as official by even slapping the logo onto it to make it more convincing and mimicking how it looked the last time around. Of course - there might be the odd chance that mosspaca suddenly took a 180° turn and completely changed their modus operandi and decided to do things completely different compared to before and that it was leaked after all and meant as a surprise for the new autograph event etc etc etc. Yep. There's a chance that all this is true after all. But there's also a chance that I step out of my house tomorrow and an airplane crashes onto my head. Of course, that chance is *extremely* small. But the chance is there… So there you have it. All I'm asking you here, is to take a moment to think it through logically when you see these things online. And that you don't instantly believe everything that other people post who are always so eager to spread false information just for the sake of stirring up the fandom without ever taking the time to verify their sources. (No, I'm NOT taking a jab at anyone here who posted/reposted these pictures and was confused and/or asked about it. I was just as puzzled as you guys. But I am criticizing those who post it and announce that it's definitely new, official merchandise…) In conclusion: Might be true, but chances are very slim, all things considered. Let's wait until Tuesday when the event takes place and keep an eye on weibo and XHS - let's see which pictures the CN fandom will post when showing their autographs. Then you can check if there's new merch present. If not - well, then it's pretty safe to say that this was definitely fake. (And if this turns out to be real after all, I will make a follow-up post, regarding the AI-looking faces. But you might not like that 'lore' so I will not mention it for now, to prevent possible drama.)

[magicalblgirl]

My eyes have been blessed as this was the first post that greeted me on IG 😏

Ox is planning for a release, I suppose. It's called "METAMORPHOSIS", it's not on Weibo tho 🤔

ZhanYi look cute together. But mannn TianShan bringin in the tension (as per usual). I just love the size difference of grown up TianShan 🥵

Also, baldie here was unexpected but hooray! The loyal bff award 🎉 but why we got a half naked baldie before we even know what his name is 😭

[kayime]