#sid's fic

[lilkitschcreature]

the weight that they gave me

pairing: dennis whitaker / michael "robby" robinavich

summary: Dennis and Robby were better for each other than anyone could have expected. Newly engaged, they felt settled together, safe and taken care of. For maybe the first time, living didn't seem like such a difficult experience. But, when Dennis' estranged parents show up in the ED, the unearthing of his past makes him wonder if he can ever truly feel stable.

tags/warnings: MDNI (18+) explicit sexual content, hurt/comfort, past child abuse, mental health issues, religious trauma, homophobia, established relationship, switch/verse robby, switch/verse whitaker, dacryphilia, pain kink, biting kink, masochism, aftercare

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[miliabyntite]

Title: Even in Death Chapter One: Tamriel is Doomed Rating: Teen & up Ships: Abnur Tharn/Female Vestige (Mentioned), eventual Male LDB/Male OC Summary: When he sacrificed himself to save his wife and all of Tamriel from a magical explosion courtesy of the dragon Kaalgrontiid, Abnur Tharn did not expect to wake up at all. On the off chance that he did, of course, he would have expected to awaken in Senchal or the Dragonguard Sanctum. Instead, he wakes up in Skyrim on the brink of execution. As if that wasn't dreadful enough, he seems to be in a more wretched version of the future than he could ever have imagined. Finding himself stranded and penniless in what he considers a cultural wasteland, Abnur must use all his wit to find a way home.

It's finally peepaw isekai time! :)

[lilkitschcreature]

y'know I love avoidant/anxious attachment style hucklerobby, but there's something so juicy about them BOTH having big, intense emotions but being incredibly closed off and terrified of vulnerability...

robby lashing out so people can't stand to be around him long enough to really see his pain / dennis being much more comfortable caring for others than letting himself be cared for, isolating himself when things become too heavy to mask with a smile

dennis apologizing even when he hasn't done anything—or isn't sorry—just to shut down emotionally raw conversations / robby finding it nearly impossible to admit he's sorry, even when he's sick with guilt, because he doesn't want to face why he acts the way he does

both of them being so insecure, overwhelmed and obsessed with chasing distractions that they don't even notice that the other can see right through them

they both feel useless bc they can't get the other to open up; broken bc they can't do it themself. on and on until someone's bottle bursts and they're holding each other through a breakdown. then they still don't talk abt it. rinse and repeat until the angst meter is full <3

[miliabyntite]

Title: Even in Death

Chapter Two: Not, Unfortunately, a Dream

Rating: Teen & up

Ships: Abnur Tharn/Female Vestige (Mentioned), eventual Male LDB/Male OC

Summary:

When he sacrificed himself to save his wife and all of Tamriel from a magical explosion courtesy of the dragon Kaalgrontiid, Abnur Tharn did not expect to wake up at all. On the off chance that he did, of course, he would have expected to awaken in Senchal or the Dragonguard Sanctum.

Instead, he wakes up in Skyrim on the brink of execution. As if that wasn't dreadful enough, he seems to be in a more wretched version of the future than he could ever have imagined. Finding himself stranded and penniless in what he considers a cultural wasteland, Abnur must use all his wit to find a way home.

Hey fun fact I had no idea til after the fact that chapter 1 came out on skyrim's birthday :V

[miliabyntite]

Title: Even in Death Chapter Twelve: Changing Plans on a Septim Rating: Teen & up Ships: Abnur Tharn/Female Vestige (Mentioned), eventual Male LDB/Male OC Summary: When he sacrificed himself to save his wife and all of Tamriel from a magical explosion courtesy of the dragon Kaalgrontiid, Abnur Tharn did not expect to wake up at all. On the off chance that he did, of course, he would have expected to awaken in Senchal or the Dragonguard Sanctum. Instead, he wakes up in Skyrim on the brink of execution. As if that wasn't dreadful enough, he seems to be in a more wretched version of the future than he could ever have imagined. Finding himself stranded and penniless in what he considers a cultural wasteland, Abnur must use all his wit to find a way home.

can you believe there are only 6 more chapters after this? :)

[miliabyntite]

Title: Even in Death Chapter Three: Sight-seeing and Tactical Lying Rating: Teen & up Ships: Abnur Tharn/Female Vestige (Mentioned), eventual Male LDB/Male OC Summary: When he sacrificed himself to save his wife and all of Tamriel from a magical explosion courtesy of the dragon Kaalgrontiid, Abnur Tharn did not expect to wake up at all. On the off chance that he did, of course, he would have expected to awaken in Senchal or the Dragonguard Sanctum. Instead, he wakes up in Skyrim on the brink of execution. As if that wasn't dreadful enough, he seems to be in a more wretched version of the future than he could ever have imagined. Finding himself stranded and penniless in what he considers a cultural wasteland, Abnur must use all his wit to find a way home.

In which Abnur gets a new friend!

[miliabyntite]

Title: Even in Death Chapter Four: Sight-seeing and Tactical Lying (formerly 'A Distinct Lack of Options' - see note below) Rating: Teen & up Ships: Abnur Tharn/Female Vestige (Mentioned), eventual Male LDB/Male OC Summary: When he sacrificed himself to save his wife and all of Tamriel from a magical explosion courtesy of the dragon Kaalgrontiid, Abnur Tharn did not expect to wake up at all. On the off chance that he did, of course, he would have expected to awaken in Senchal or the Dragonguard Sanctum. Instead, he wakes up in Skyrim on the brink of execution. As if that wasn't dreadful enough, he seems to be in a more wretched version of the future than he could ever have imagined. Finding himself stranded and penniless in what he considers a cultural wasteland, Abnur must use all his wit to find a way home.

So this morning I realized I accidentally swapped the chapter titles for 3 & 4 :) it's fixed on AO3 but it's still wrong in the graphic, alas.

[miliabyntite]

Title: Even in Death Chapter Sixteen: The Subtle Art of Sending a Message Rating: Teen & up Ships: Abnur Tharn/Female Vestige (Mentioned), eventual Male LDB/Male OC Summary:  When he sacrificed himself to save his wife and all of Tamriel from a magical explosion courtesy of the dragon Kaalgrontiid, Abnur Tharn did not expect to wake up at all. On the off chance that he did, of course, he would have expected to awaken in Senchal or the Dragonguard Sanctum. Instead, he wakes up in Skyrim on the brink of execution. As if that wasn't dreadful enough, he seems to be in a more wretched version of the future than he could ever have imagined. Finding himself stranded and penniless in what he considers a cultural wasteland, Abnur must use all his wit to find a way home.