#silvs screams

[silvsarts]

I feel like crying to day.

outsiders smp angst?

Oh my god i have so many ideas but i just dont have any drawings or sketches I can give you guys but instead let me give you this:

Don't think of season 30.

Don't think about despite it all, the maze will continue. A monolith of death and betrayal, puppeteered by individuals who only want entertainment.

Don't think about how our clearing is so broken and burned beyond recognition that it will only become another puzzle. Another warning. Another obstacle, just like the frozen clearing. That nobody will consider that people lived and grew in their as they do in their own clearing.

Don't think about how the characters we knew and watched will never get justice, closure, how almost nobody will remember them as more than cannon fodder, obstacles, or things that just had to go.

Don't think about our outsiders, their ranks reduced to a mere fraction of who they used to be, shoved back into a world that despised them so much they were sent into a death trap like lambs to a slaughter.

Don't think about how future seasons of fresh faced outsiders, blind to their horrible pasts will run over the graves and resting places, unaware of how many stood there before them.

Don't think about season 30, and how in the end, every story that enters a maze is already a pre-written tragedy.

[silvsarts]

Mmmm thinking about expounding the good ending in SCB where the outsiders are forced to choose, again, mercy or death. They choose mercy, and it’s what ends up sending owen back into the maze. He realizes it, he’s seen this before, he knows what’s next, the tests, the torture, he lashes out in one last ditch attempt to escape it again but he’s overpowered by the numerous guards and is dragged away, you can see the other outsiders horrified by what they’ve chosen, but not guilty. never guilty.

The last thing the crowd hears before season 30 ends is the pathetic pleading of a man for a person who isn’t even there.

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More abt SCB!Owen because this entire au was made up because I missed him

Since I think I’ll be going with the “good ending” here, ie the revelation in the end that Owen is a part of the maze. Like, he’s never allowed to leave with any survivors, fuck it i’m making this guy likeable again.

Having his memory wiped and restored so many times has had an adverse reaction on his brain chemistry, its gotten more attuned to the brain chip, which is why when the memory changes are triggered either one of his personalities used to take over so suddenly. His entire brain changed just to make it easier. And during fang and nail, scb!Krow fucked him up so bad that it actually knocked a couple things loose, so the lines aren’t as clear anymore. Sure there were influences from the start, but it’s made more apparent as time goes on. The more time the other scb!Outsiders spend with him, the more they see influences of each personality apparent in the other, and it. It fucks em up. They don’t know how to feel about it, and neither does scb!Owen. For the first time in his life, he’s starting to feel regret for killing demons, he’s near another demon that he should have killed, but the drive to kill it isn’t there anymore. He has nightmares now, and they make him lash out more, but it still isn’t enough to drive the other outsiders away. But they can’t figure out why.

None of them know what to do. They really didn’t know what to do from the beginning. Since their desperate flight from home lugging along two friends who seem to want nothing but blood, with no more leader figures to follow.

[silvsarts]

can someone please PLEASE try to make a slime tut of the proshot of mula sa buwan my heart can't take this

[silvsarts]

any ideas that you wish was in outsiders smp but wasn’t ?

-Random question Anon

Rubs my hands together

Personally I think that the streams from reunion to finale could have been planned out better? I get that some of them were to give certain characters ends because the streamers didn't have time anymore, but as your certified c!owen main I realllyyyy wish they gave him more dimension after his memories other than 'whelp, time to get back to killing!!' because it. it reminds me of the last violet evergarden movie. iykyk. Like, is this character really so shallow to grow past who they were that a single pebble from their past shatters the glass house? Also wasn't all too fond of the abrupt ending, I would have liked to see more of this world that casually tosses people into a death trap for mass entertainment, rather than them walking onto the stage, turns out it was just a tv show and have the credits roll, because as a finale, it's not all that compelling of an ending? Before the end owen and apo reiterated that there wouldn't be a continuation, but the way the finale closes off kind of promises that? I mean ig open endings exist but it wasn't a satisfying open ending if you get what i mean

I have so many thoughts about outsiders and so I direct you to the scb au which while hasn't been updated in a long while is where i just take all the ideas and frustrations i had with the outsiders finale and make them Real and True to me

[silvsarts]

make me cry.

what about this:

"In the clearing, before we escaped, it was always easy to tell what the demons were thinking or feeling through their eyes. They were like cats that way.

After we got Rasbi out, we never were able to gauge how she was feeling that way again."

[silvsarts]

While I have outsiders on the mind, post canon ghost au anyone?

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Do you have ur own outsider oc? :D

I do!!! Well theyre less ocs but more self-inserts that i play around with on my canvas when i'm in the mood, no names, they're just silvs as a watcher and silvs as a Watcher lmao, I'd like to make a genuine outsiders oc now that I think about it though, maybe in one of my aus