kiss 😌 ( @sixfound )
Sunlight creeps through the window ( there is warmth within the room, and usually, it would bother her that his shitty blinds don’t prevent it ). this time, however, it doesn’t, and she cannot tell if it’s because she’s exhausted and worn out, or simply the fact that he’s there. Amber likes to think she has no heart ( a plastic, blood – pumping machine ! Nothing more ), and because she has no heart, it doesn’t matter who leaves and comes and goes and what they will say. Because she’s used to people leaving ( her mother leaves and comes back when it’s convenient for her, when she’s out of that fucking shithole Rotti places her whenever she’s not as good as he needs her needs to be ); she’s used to people leaving and never coming back and them not giving a shit if she cares.
He comes back, though. He comes back each fucking time, and maybe that’s just as bad, because it means she has learned to expect him to return – expect him to let her creep into his bed and wake her up like this, with a kiss to her temple.
His heartbeat is soft ( her head rests on his bare chest, she can feel it still, beating feeble yet constant, unlike her own designer organ that just pumps blood madly most of the time ), and when he presses another kiss to the top of her hair, Amber flutters her eyes open, and the light of the morning sun blinds her – it’s like Icarus getting too close, too close to anything good and warm and happy – and as she raises her gaze and meets his eyes, blue and weathered by endless working nights without sleep, she smiles at him, “ good morning. I’m glad you’re not dead, ‘cause i’m gonna want round six in the shower in about five minutes.”
she’s come to realize that more than sex, it’s just an excuse to stay a while longer – with him, close to him. Because soon enough, he’ll leave again.












