for baby boy skyler;
i didnt get the chance to fully answer that anons question on if i liked you or not and let me tell you i fucking adore you but recently ive been treating you like shit and im very sorry about it and you dont deserve it.
“And this is how it starts..”
i just want to start off with where it began. you were upset about edface one day and alex didnt have any way of making you feel better and he sent me to help you and that was the first day i ever got to see that beautiful smile of yours that radiates more than the sun and im so happy ive gotten the chance to meet you because you brought life into my life because you’ve helped me so much, especially with my mom and stuff and i cant thank you more anymore for that. but anyways i couldnt just leave you alone after that because you just had something i needed and i still really dont know what it is till this day.
“He’s got a boyfriend anyway..”
well you were kind of separated from ed and we were fooling around but you went back to him and it kind of broke me a little bit and i want to pretty much disappear off the face of the earth because back then i thought i was the only person who deserved you but no, i really dont deserve you one single bit because youre so full of life and nice and then im an asshole who just depresses everyone.
“I don’t wanna be your friend, I wanna kiss your neck..”
so when i asked you out it was kind of awkward because i didnt really ask you out we kind of agreed to it? and i enjoy that in a relationship where not everything is standard and traditional, we break all the rules sky and i want to continue breaking the rules if you’d have me.
“Why don’t you figure my heart out..”
i know im kind of a difficult person sky but thats kind of just me. im always going to be an asshole, im always going to be a smug bastard, im always going to fuck around, im always going to joke when im not supposed to, and that means im going to break your heart but i dont want to, it was never my intention baby boy.
“I hurt your sister as well, don’t you mind, don’t you mind..”
i am so sorry for doing this to you sky, im just really fucking confused at the moment but not about my love for you just about who i want to be with and its not your fault but it must be really hard for you to be going through this because it probably really hurts that you have to /share/ me.
“If you just take off your mask find out everything gone wrong..”
so i just want to say that its my fault everything is like this and i honestly truly love you from the bottom of my heart sky, i meant that. i just want you to forgive me for all of this and if we cant be lovers i want to be your bestest friend and im not rejecting you or anything im just saying if this doesnt work out.
“I love you, don’t you mind, don’t you mind..”
and now for the final thing of this post im going to put ten things i hate about you and then things i love about you.
I Hate You;
I hate your fucking attitude. I hate how you want me to quit what makes me feel something. I hate how you hate Zeus. I hate when you get mad at me. I hate when you ignore the fuck out of me. I hate when you hit me. I hate when you say I’m no good. I hate when you expect me to do everything. I hate when you try to get your way on everything. I hate the way I don’t hate you for hurting me.
I Love You;
I love your curls because they’re so cute and bouncy. I love your eyes, they’re the perfect shade of green. I love your lips, I’d kiss them all day. I love your hands because they’re so small and sometimes when I can tell you’re nervous about being with me they get very warm. I love your sense of style because I don’t have any. I love your body because you have all the right clothes. I love when you bite your lip and play with your lip ring. I love it when you wear your cute little glasses. I love it when you cling on to me like a baby sloth. I love how you put up with my shit. I fucking love you, Skyler Kennedy Styles.
