how it feels waiting for the blood to fill up over the white in a styro

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how it feels waiting for the blood to fill up over the white in a styro
does anyone else also feel like they are faking their problems if they are not actively suffering?
i dont think i was meant to be alive this long. nothing is going right
Hmm do I want to be a worthless piece of shit and bedrot all day or do I want to be a productive piece of shit and cvt myself
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note game because I really want attention:
1- I eat a snack
5- I’ll do an assignment
20- I’ll do all my schoolwork (sick rn)
50- I’ll finish all my chores
100- I’ll stop sh’ing for a month (in progress)
200- I’ll be a better person
300- I’ll clean my room (I already cleaned my room but I haven’t reached this so ig a deep clean)
400- I’ll stop purging
500- I’ll eat 3 meals a day
1000- I’ll stop sh’ing for 6 months
pink - reached
blue- reached and achieved
red- reached but I failed
I’m making this at school and it made my bf sad
:((( sorry Charlie