So, I know this won't get out to a lot of people (I hardly use my Tumblr and hardly anyone follows me, after all" but I wanted to share something. You see, I struggle a lot with suicidal and self-harming thoughts (and if that phrasing doesn't make me sound like an ass-hat I dunno what will). I never actually cut (I can't touch the edge of a knife without getting shaky and nervous) but I'd always find little ways to hurt myself. I'd purposely stub my toe, try to get paper cuts when I read, peel off the skin around hangnails, etc. And I'd always always always pick at my wounds to keep them from healing right. One of my thumbs is in a perpetual state of healing, and I can't hardly feel it anymore. I have come across a few things that have helped me stop though. One is, I would take a sharpie and draw wherever I was wanting to hurt. Anything from smiley faces to cool diamonds with backgrounds. It made me colorful and pretty and my body was a display for my art, so I wouldn't harm it as much while I had a pretty piece on me. Another is, I would curl up in my blankets and keep a death grip on my blanket so I couldn't use them to hurt myself. The blanket was warm and comforting, and I could hide from the world until I felt kind of alright again. The last thing I would do, is I would distract myself. Anime, books, fanfiction, art projects, writing pieces, T.V., texting, social media, etc. Anything that would take my mind off of it for a while. It would return with a vengeance later, but I was okay for the time being. The best thing is to talk to someone, but I never really had that. So, I just hope some of this may be able to help you. I just wanna see you make it through this.
