Unloading Burden - Part 1- (sosul x mangkwan!reader)
᯽warnings: negative self thoughts
᯽a/n: This is a request from @cerealash! This is a short part but just to get something out to encourage me to write more haha. I thought it would be fun to play around with the idea of the burden carrier of the Zeswa meeting and falling for a runaway Mangkwan Na’vi. I will eventually make a separate post for requests, but until then if you have any, leave them in the comments!
The ash on their skin had been there for days, cracked and falling off slowly like dandruff. However, they didn’t wash the white and red from their body. A reminder of where they came, where they’d suffered, where the great mother had abandoned. Breath paused at the thought of the great mother, Eywa. Looking around at the fresh vegetation and luscious plant life around, the tension started to relax in their shoulders. It had been weeks since they’d seen a lush forest like the Kinglor, used to the sharp yurts and hot, dry sand of the Mangkwan’s homeland. But knowing that they weren’t going back to the land of ash filled their body with an ease they hadn’t ever felt before.
‘You are nothing without Varang, without her fire’
‘You are not deserving of a fresh start’
They shook their head, ears pinned back as they tried to escape from their own thoughts. They had been hearing these thoughts ever since (y/n) had started considering abandoning their violent clan.
During a hunt to the upper plains, they had seen a Winzaw with a strange beeping device sticking out from its shoulder. Curious about the device and the pale pink creature, (y/n) approached carefully, hands in front of them as they whispered calming reassurances. Finally yanking the device out, the creature’s head dipped into (y/n)’s hand, rubbing against them as a thank you. As they lightly ran a thumb along the creature's face, their gaze went to the shiny device in their hand.
The thud from the arrow ripped a cry from the creature as it pierced the Winzaw’s thigh. The rest of the hunting party had spotted them, and unlike (y/n), they had no curiosity or care for anything. They only craved to look the best, the strongest, the one most capable to step up for the clan. Taking a step back in shock, they dropped the ketuwong metal. Trying not to let their nerves show outwardly, their back straightened and they gripped their curved knife. The hunting party closed in on them, strapping up the poor thing in rough frayed ropes, sometimes stabbing it or whipping it with maniacal laughter and taunts while they led it back to their volcanic wasteland.
A snapping branch brought their attention back to the trees looming above them and the predators that were wandering throughout, searching for their next meal. They quickly retreated behind one of the large trunks of the twisted scale trees, keeping their eyes and eyes open, slowing down their breath and trying to calm their heart pounding against their ribcage. It stilled slowly as they saw a Yerik creeping across the path they were about to approach, a small and silent sigh leaving their lips. They were heading North to the Upper Plains, just now approaching their path towards the Celebration Arches; they didn’t have time to stop for every Yerik that crossed their path.
‘You were never brave enough.’
A frustrated hiss left (y/n), getting stuck in their head was something they did often, criticizing themselves like the chatter of the hunting party. This was the whole reason they left, feeling like they were going crazy, a voice in the back of their head saying it would be best for the clan anyways. They were never built to be zevakx. Wandering the plains, figuring out who they were now and what they wanted to do would be easier in a place so vast and far from the ash (y/n) had become accustomed to.