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Month of Spreads 2

Day eight

Since this one doesn't have any question, its gonna look like 3 long paragraphs, so just bear with me.

For my first energy draining thing, I wrote was my empathy. I took #2 The High Priestess, since she stands for psychic abilities and visions. The first step is the Ten of Wands, or the need to make progress. Empathy is a double edged sword as you can feel all the good emotions (happiness, joy, pleasure), but as well as the bad ones too (sadness, depression, fear). Another meaning by the card, as you can see from the picture, is taking too much that you can't hold, or biting off more than you can chew. But the second card I drew was the spider from the oracle, standing for community or web weaving. So if I can find a community if empaths, then it will be all better.

Next was negative thoughts/emotions. Unlike empathy, these are the negative thoughts and emotions that I have on my own, without outside influences. I chose 5 of cups as it stands for the negative emotions, like disappointment and depression. Then I drew Queen of Swords in reverse for the first step, which means if I don't leave behind a deep longing or memory behind, they will continuously return, no matter what I do. And the extra card I drew was the Zombie, which stands for control, particularly my emotions.

Finally, my last energy draining is from Trying so hard to no avail, or to the more latent few, when one tries so hard for something and doesn't get it. This I chose the 8 of pentacles in reverse because it is fruitless or misguided effort. The card that is supposed to be the first step is #6 The Lovers. Simply put, I need to confide in my husband and be not afraid to ask for help on tasks that are impossible by myself. The last card I pulled was The Lamp, which stands for remembrance. So if I always remember where I went wrong, then I can turn around and redo whatever it is and get around the part I get wrong.

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Month of Spreads 2

According to the first spread of the month, this spread I pulled is to know my inner self, and from first glance it shocked me (with the devil).

What does my inner self want me to know at this present moment?

I drew the nine of pentacles in reverse, which stands for unhappy home life and need to tend to house duties.

Is there any sign or advice I have been previously given that has gone unnoticed that needs my attention?

I drew the devil, which is warning to change my reckless and destructive life style.

How can I be more receptive to listening to my inner self from this moment forward?

I drew the knight of swords in reverse, which means I must stop taking the easy path over the right one.

Bonus:

As an additional card I drew the mummy, which stands for change, particle after being bound.

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Month of Spreads 2

Day twenty

So, for two days drawing, I found #13 Death and King of Cups on either side of the Three of Cups (left and right respectively). Death, as one of most feared cards, doesn't always mean death as all diviners know or should know. It actually stands for change, but death can be change as change is when one thing ends to bring upon something new, death ends one life so they can start a new life in a different time. So how I have changed is what I should be proud of, and I am proud of it. Then there is the King of Cups who stands for confidence and pride. So I need to be proud of it and show it to the outside world with my emotions as well, something I don't do too often.

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Day Nineteen

What can I be grateful in my life?

I got the Six of Swords which stands for the moving on or giving an offering. Along with the question, it is to be grateful how simple it is for me to move on, and I should be grateful for that.

What in my life am I taking for granted?

I am taking the balance in my life for granted, as per the two of Swords. The Yin Yang that is depicted on her shirt is a symbol of balance and harmony, and says that things with counterparts always have a little of the other with it to maintain the natural balance of all things.

How can I bring more awareness and appreciation to the people and things in my life?

The Nine of Cups shows that I must always keep an observing eye, and with those that I learn, I simply share. Not much to it.

How can I be more grateful for the experiences and lessons I learn throughout my lifetime?

Page of Pentacles, or become creative with the knowledge I have learned,

Hoe can I easily implement more gratitude into my life today?

King of Cups, to show pride in the things I have learned and keep calm with my emotions.

I know I didn't put a lot of information for all of these, but I still feel like as long as I do it, I can prove that I can do this challenge and future challenges.

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Day eighteen

"Well lets see how you can get the friends you desire," I say, chuckling at my own joke once again. By first shuffling and draw a solitary card from my tarot deck, I hold it frozen, worried by the meaning at I look between her and the Four of Swords.

"What is it," she asked, pulling her hair back and around her ear. I could tell she was worried about the reading and definitely noticed my face.

I set the card down, and put a hand out on the table to comfort her, "It is nothing. This card usually refers to the lose of something or someone, but it can also be about your loneliness. Let get the second half of this reading." I start shuffling the oracle and draw the Barmbrack. I immediately throw it down, and look her in the eyes. "See, this card explains it! Barmbrack stands for sweetness and synergy. All you need is to find people that you synergize with. I don't doubt that you are a sweet girl, just haven't found the people who synergize with you. Just remember to keep a smile and stay positive."

I cover the Four of Swords. I continue, "If you take any memory from this reading, just remember the barmbeack, the soft and spicy bread that everyone loves." I give her a wink as she stood up and walked away. I watched her walk off, and she turned around and smiled, where I reciprocated and put the cards away.

(I know it was supposed to be role playing, but it is kind of unrealistic to do the scene without the other person talking or doing anything. Either way I did the reading and showed my writing skill.)

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Day seventeen

So I drew #12 Hanged Man, Ten of Swords, and #17 Star using inspiration as my keyword. Using my own intuition, I get from the hanged man, the feeling of being trapped, but within being trapped, there is balance. With his predicament, he is both protected and trapped. The Ten of Swords makes me feel defeated. Then, #17 Star makes be feel split, but there is contentment with the two world. She pours the water on the earth and in the pond.

All in all, these cards represent my inspiration. All three cards, feeling trapped yet safe, feeling defeated, and being split between two worlds are all what I feel, like when I am writing. The last card at least tells me that I should always press on, regardless of the card before, as contentment will always be my reward, and when I can't continue, I can really on my divination to aid me.

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Month of Spreads 2

Day fifteen

I chose the word strength, as I feel like I am lacking in such, for today's reading. I know it says to pull three cards, but I also pulled an additional card from my Oracle, and the results were quite interesting.

What can I do to nurture and cultivate more strength in my life?

In order, I pulled the Six of Cups in reverse, #16 Tower in reverse, King of Wands, and Trick or Treat. These cards will represent the people or things I must do to cultivate strength: reconnect with one's roots or grow from quarrels and differences from the past, a new path either spiritually or personally, remain compassionate, faithful and confident, as well as something shady might need to occur in order to achieve what I wish. The last part was due part by the oracle, as Trick or Treat can display trickery. If this was honor I would question it, but since this is strength I see it as completely normal.

Thankfully this one was short, at least shorter than my others have been recently.

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Day fourteen

As a writer, this pull is very interesting to me, and will most likely help me in the future.

What is thr main block/obstacle/disconnect of my creativity?

I got the Queen of Swords, which represents focusing on the past and/or the future. I do this a lot, especially when trying yo figure out a scene, I think of what has happened, then what might happen as well as what will happen.

What part of my current creative process is helping me?

I got the Knight of Wands in reverse, which means the uncertainty of which path to take to attain a goal. This makes sense since I don't do a full brainstorm. Just enough to get ideas flowing, as things tend to change as I write.

What part of my current creative process is hindering me?

#6 The Lovers. I was shocked to see this card. What I feel that my tarot is telling me that I'm either putting too much attention in the romances I write, or I am not putting enough and need to bring that out, but probably rhe former. Or it could be that I need to expand my horizons (since I have written 4 gay (mxm) couples and 1 straight couple).

What does my creative self need most right now?

Essentially, attention. The Page of Pentacles refers to hard-work and concentration, so I need to focus on my creative self to make it better.

How can I effectively work through my creative block?

I drew the Four of Swords and the Skull of Stars for this one. The Four of Swords stand for death of a person, idea or project. I don't think it means the last two, even though it could. The first one would probably be someone in my stories, just to kill someone in the book to add my story. However, when next to the Skull of Stars, it says there are an infinite ways to work through it. So I just got to work at it, though the death of a person eould be the best.