#subaritic

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How it feels to be liking, re-posting, re-following, re-adding following tags, re-tagging using keyboard commands for my back up N$FW alt account from my main account.

N$FW account woes.

Tumblr really annoys me sometimes... lll(-_-"

having to use leetspeak.

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I need to stop coming on to this site and overcome the fear of socializing and deal with insecurities, every second of escapism is a distraction of my own potential, I deserve a better life and seek someone who wants me and are local someone who cares and loves me as I love them in return. I like everyone here who I have interacted with, it just gets tiring... people are time zones away it's just not logistically feasible or realistic, I can't control people or their actions,

i need to get into the local scene, It's kinda sad that the internet is suppose to supplement a social space and not become ubiquitous 24/7 thing. third space are just kinda eroded, I'm fortunate enough to be near by cosmopolitan metropolis near me, but I can't stand living in the suburbs anymore.

Online it can work but I just can't. at least this spot is better then Reddit, I have more positive interactions here. I do enjoy the interactions and meeting people, but I need to find friends, community and hobbies.

I wish I can transfer my confident unfiltered persona into real life. Where in contrast I'm just alone, quiet, stoic and timid, monotone.

i'm not leaving anything soon unless Tumblr deactivates my account.

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The more you want something the less youll get it.

No please, I do not want a dom/sub thats close to where i live, that will message me, with great connection and chemistry. Whos into all the nerdy and kinky things I am into.