Realizing how much I really crave being taken care of in a sexual setting like yes my interest in BDSM is because it turns me on but also the idea of dynamics where I have someone that genuinely has good intentions for me and wants to give me what I need even if it’s unconventional. Someone who is looking out for my body language and actually checks in. The idea that I can be as messy and vulnerable as I want and someone will be there to clean me up and put me back together. It’s just comforting
















