#summer confessions

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Fave Five: YAs with Queer Puerto Rican Female MCs The Resolutions by Mia Garcia Juliet Takes a Breath by Gabby Rivera Summer Confessions by Lynn Vroman Echo After Echo by Amy Rose Capetta The Gallery of Unfinished Girls by Lauren Karcz

[tryingnotosurvivebutolive]

Summer isn't the same

I hate summer now. Summer means coming back to this shitty town filled with shitty people and bad energy. Because I'm broke. Because I might be studying or pursuing a career that's too much for me. A career that might not be mine. Summer means feeling different. And not a good different. Because I love me, I love the way I am and that I am not the same as everyone else. I have a special style and unique personality. But this place makes me feel shitty about who I am and my desicions. Summer isn't longer filled with happiness and random adventures. It's filled with emptiness, loneliness and insecurities. Guess summer is no longer filled with hopeful summer love and midnight laughter because those years are over. We are all grown up now and I'm a bit behind, because teen years are over.

[muh-fuckintide]

I love

how my booty jiggles in a sundress

[themfnfuego]

Summer Confessions Part II

I’m jealous. I’m selfish.

With my dreams… at least I think you should. A lot of older (island) folks always say “When ya finish school ya need to come back home and invest in this country! (The Bahamas)” and I always get prosecuted as if saying “No, I’m staying there” Is the ultimate sin. I think limitations are barriers people place on themselves when their afraid of new ventures or entering situations they’re not really familiar with. I learned this much in my life - God makes you uncomfortable in order to get you to another comfortable position in your life. So don’t ever be afraid to step out of your comfort zone to go after your aspirations. 10-15 years down the line you never want to say “what if…” Step out on faith, plunge into your dreams (Whatever it is you want to be) and live with no regrets!

[themfnfuego]

Summer Confessions Part 1

We all have that one person we dated who made us look at life and people differently. Lately, this new mentality has me guarding my heart and wearing my emotions loosely. So loosely that I don't ever want to be that 17/18 year old who was sitting in his car too broken to sneak back into his mother's house without sounding like shattering glass. I've encountered "love" a few times since then but I never played it too close. I guess you can say I'm scared to give someone that power over me (again). I cringe every time my parents ask me "So when are you bringing someone home for us to meet?" Not because I don't have an answer but because I refuse to even think about bringing someone home who isn't serious with me or taking me seriously. Lately I've been so "Team Me", it's ridiculous. It's not that I'm shunning the chances of another relationship or that potential "one" but to be completely honest with you, I'm so scared. I need to shake that fear and hopefully one day I just may stumble across that someone who's willing to take a chance on me (and vice versa).

[themfnfuego]

Summer confessions...

I know I haven't posted anything in a while but recently I've been inspired to post a few summer confessions. I can't remember the handle of the tumblr blog I got this from but if you ever see this, thank you for your bravery.

[khudgarz-parinda]

i , myself, don’t believe or follow any religion. my parents are both Hindus and they have tried to pass it on to me and my younger brother. I have been an atheist for the past 10 years but I respect all religions and people who follow them. so this time around when i was in India, I was asked to go with my parents to go and meet our guruji. now for my parents sake, I try to show that I am religious and I go to temples with them to keep them happy. so again I couldn’t refuse. but I will have to admit. once I sat down in front of the guruji and started talking to him, it was a strange feeling. he was so full of wisdom and knowledge and millions go to him for advice and answers .. and here I was asking him how was he doing today ! he was quite polite and nice in his answer and asked if I had anything to ask or tell him . so I had a 10min convo with him about my choice in career and lifestyle and just other random things. and finally I asked him for blessings for my family and my brother.

and not gonna lie, it felt so nice and peaceful just sitting in that room with him. And as soon as i touched his feet and left the room, that feeling of calm and peacefulness left and as much as i tried to regain that feeling, i couldn't.  i wish i get another chance in life to experience that feeling again

[khudgarz-parinda]

Summer Confession #2

As much as I'd hate to admit to myself, I used to be a selfish prick 6 years ago.

back in year 10, and kinda before that too, I had always been a very selfish person. I was so selfish, I wouldn't share a lot of my things with any one else, even my best friends. If I had toys and my friends wanted to play with them, you did under my conditions and if i didn't like you, well HELL TO THE MOTHER FUCKING NO!

But then in year 11, i fell for this girl. And i fell hard. And she really changed me, for the better, for sure. I started to become unselfish ( even my mum noticed it :| ) and started to be okay to share things ( i never shared anything with my brother before 'cos selfishness). And since then, I have been okay about sharing. Even today, mum bought me two t-shirts, and my brother liked them, so I let him have it without feeling bad or jealous.

And I am quite proud of myself for being able to change that part of my personality, which I never truly liked. And I am thankful to her for bringing about this change in me (and yes she is my ex now).

But this doesn't mean that I am always unselfish. No. There are times when i let myself be selfish to protect myself, and when i believe I have the right to do so. I may be wrong. But that depends on who is judging