I keep thinking about how Krailert was a brilliant pianist and music critic, but kept those sides hidden, to pursue a military career, and how Trin played the trumpet, but pursued economics, and stopped playing after the horrors he experienced in Paris, and how Trin suggested multiple times that Victor should be a writer, but he was killed for his activism before he could pursue it, and Naran facing censorship for every little thing he wrote, and Tanwa being the only one who could express himself creatively, but only because he came from money (and even then it was frowned upon...)
And its the whole "I must study politics and war, so my sons can study mathematics and philosophy, so their children can study painting, poetry and music" (paraphrased), but like the devastating loss of art and talent and thought and brilliance to oppression and war and poverty
