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《 ★ seolhyunrk 》 he knows a few royal girls, he’s been saying it for months but when news of this month’s evaluation had come out, he wished he didn’t. someone as confident as yixing, as occasionally vain as he is, not wanting to be seen was unusual for him but he couldn’t shake the feeling. his efforts to return to normal were wasted and it shows. having an audience when he’s performing gives him less anxiety than it does to see seolhyun walking his way now, his throat suddenly going dry for a much different reason than it had about a year ago around this time. she’s still just as beautiful, just as attractive as always, but when he looked at her now, it’s frightening that he could compel himself to feel nothing at all.
it’s becoming easy for him to feel numb, under the influence or not, and he’s reckless while being hesitant at the same time. reckless in behavior and yet cautious to be around anyone who could see right through him. he almost forgets to call her juliet, and his smile is small when he readjusts his bag strap on his shoulder, tugging it more securely in place, the only thing secure about him right now. “hark! in the distance, it is juliet and she is the sun,” it’s not a direct quote from the play. it might not even be a quote from anything shakespeare has written but when he’s facing a worthy opponent when it comes to his own act, he’ll take what he can get.