#talkingcauliflower

[lonecaulflower]

Hello my void people.

i'm half dead because I haven't been sleeping these past few life-times so i'm sorry if today's blog post is more ranty than usual. My usual filter kind of shuts down when I'm exhausted. Either way, hello.

I've finished packing, if anyone's curious, and my entire room is empty now. I don't think it's hit me yet. I haven't cried yet. Not even when I was choosing which of my precious valuables to keep. I'm just glad I've got all that crap over and done with.

When you're packing, you encounter nostalgia head on. I realized that I kept so many things that my ex left behind that I'm starting to wonder about my mental state. I mean, I kept a year old envelope that once held a now lost letter. How fucking ridiculous is that?

I keep telling myself that I'm over him, but I'm not very sure. Sure, it doesn't hurt anymore. It's been six months and I don't feel sad every day anymore. Maybe I need to get laid.

On that subject, I've turned into a shallow bitch. I'm on at least three different dating sites and I don't even talk to guys I have no physical attraction to. And those who are my type don't even come close to my ex. All I can do is compare them to him. Any of my Void people have advice for that? It's freaking annoying.

I might take a nap now. I just wanted to give a quick update on my current situation. When I go to my new home, I'll post a before and after blog of my first plane trip. It's going to be so much fun (insert terrified sarcasm here).

Well, I love y'all. I hope everyone is having a great summer and a great life.

-Cauliflower

[lonecaulflower]

Hello my void people! I'm sorry to have not kept my promise with you about updating frequently, it's been a busy month for Cauliflower. I'm in the process of moving my crazy ass to Florida. I've realized it's hard to decide which of your beloved possessions will be taken and which will be thrown out. I've parted with so many precious memories that I'm surprised I haven't cried. I'll possibly start sobbing very soon. My family is planning things without me yet I feel okay with it. I've been making my own plans but it's not the same. I'll be somewhat alone now. I wonder what my readers are doing now. What my old friends are doing. What my ex is doing. I'm sure everyone is doing just as well as I am. That's all I really have for now my beloved Void people. Until next time! -Cauliflower

[lonecaulflower]

My ex's ring doesn't feel right on my finger anymore. I think that's some progress right there, y'all. So, congrats to me?

-Cauliflower

[lonecaulflower]

Hello my people of the void I yell into. It's the morning after graduation and I'm feeling lighter than I normally feel. He's crossed my mind several times and was in my dreams, which is why I'm not in bed at 6 am. Lucy, last night, called Cauliflower again, not too loudly though, and I felt loved. I don't think most people understand the true power of a name, even a made up name. With that, I shall share the name I'll be owning within the next year. I am Andy. I am a gender neutral transgender and last night was amazing. I love you so much, Lucy. I love a lot of the people I saw last night. Even though I didn't make many close friends, I am full of nostalgia when I look at certain people. The best friend.that is moving far away like me is the smartest person I know. The crazy stupid guys I met will probably be the same. I love them all the same. I try my hardest not to get sappy, but I'm sleep deprived and possibly sick so get over it. To my fellow graduates, congrats and I hope you're happy. To my younger voids, you'll be okay, darlings. -Cauliflower

[lonecaulflower]

I cried at the end of my last day. There were people I didn't say a damn thing to and I kind of feel bad about it. To my readers who are also graduating, congrats and I'll see you in the future. -Cauliflower

[lonecaulflower]

My writing is a badass tool I use to make my ex and people I dislike end up in unfortunate accidents.

[lonecaulflower]

Lucy, how in the Hell did you know that I'm Cauliflower? I've read over all my posts and nothing says that I'm the same person in real life. I'm freaking out over here. My people of the void, Lucy is a powerful individual that should never be crossed.

[lonecaulflower]

Hello my one to two readers! As you can tell, I’m in a damn good mood today. Why? I’ve discovered I have a new reader.

To my beloved Lucy, you’re a light in the shithole I call my life. I pray I write a play with you in it someday.

Enough of that though. I have been having a dramtastic last two weeks of the end of school. It started with my ex’s grandmother death and me breaking down for a long while. She meant the world to me.

My ex is still avoiding me, the bastard. But I have a fantastic man back in my life. Unfortunately, he’s not single. I’m starting to think this a trend. I feel attracted to men I cannot obtain. What even is that bullshit?

Also my best guy friend, Jon, is going into surgery pretty soon. Being the worrywart I am, I’m constantly worried about him. Jon is one of the greatest people I’ve met.

I’m sure everyone wants to hear some good news so, I’m a level 17 Redguard in Skyrim!! Yay! My happiness is based off a video game!

But honestly, I’m pretty happy right now. Well, as happy as the world let’s me. I promise to update more during the summer. Ill be heading to Florida and working on the while trans thing.

I love y’all to death.

-Cauliflower