Hey friends. First off, I’d like to apologize for how fickle I’ve been lately. I’ve been dealing with depression, burnout, health issues, and other things IRL that have made it hard to do anything. I’m so overwhelmed I don’t know what to do with myself. It’s not just writing/tumblr that I’ve been fickle on, but I know it’s unfair to writing partners and people waiting for replies and for that I am sorry. If you cannot handle the uncertainty I completely understand not wanting to put up with it.
The way the world is going has also made it difficult but I do not want that to stop me from writing or doing the things I love.
That being said, if I’ve done something to bother, insult or upset you please tell me so that I can make amends. I try to be genuine, kind and honest in every interaction I have with people. If it seems like I’m not getting something, it’s because I’m not getting it and I need you to explain it to me. I’m a human and an adult and am capable of having discussions. I’m trying not to stress over things because my heart is tired and we’re still trying to figure out what’s wrong with it, but it’s hard when being blindsided by unexpected things.
I try to form bonds and friendships with people that I write with (when I get through the social anxiety), I like to know about the people I write with and genuinely care about you all when I manage to do this. I miss messages sometimes because of my ADHD and Tumblr messaging system sucks but that doesn’t mean I’m ignoring you or that I don’t care. If it feels like you aren’t reciprocating, I back off as well and try my best not to be an annoyance. I just want to write with people who enjoy the same things I do and hopefully make friends along the way.
I’m rambling, idk, my heart’s been really heavy today and a lot has been on my mind.