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"Unfortunately this "black cloud mentality" ain't going anywhere anytime soon."

Sketch Diary day 2 - April "2nd".

Woops, unfortunately already ordering ventis on this project... ^^; We feel better about the conversation after drawing this out though, so that's at least a positive.

Not sure who was in the car getting praised for being more tolerable mature this evening, but in light of a phrase the same family member threw in our faces a few years back, one of our anger/trauma holders, Teito, decided to step up and draw this out on our lunch break.

It's not bad that we've learned how to approach things more civilly... But we've also had to stuff a lot down just to keep family members happy with us so. Safe to say we can't fully appreciate the compliment.

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Image 1, Panel 1: "you're so much (more*) mature lately - you meet everything with enthusiasm!"

Image 1 panel 2: (sick of**)...Your black cloud mentality!"

Image 1: ...Yeah. I bet you're fucking sick of that.

*meant to add 'more' but he wrote too fast and we didn't want to to back and change it.

**Similar concept, he didn't think to add these words for clarity until later and didn't want to fix it.

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Had a friend introduce the concept of a Rage Room to us and boy howdy did Teito come up to the front So Fast,

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Between Teito and Bipper, our queue rn sure is..... something. 😭

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It's a really rough feeling to look back and feel like someone should've Known. Someone should've cared. They should have seen all the red flags on us. The constant anger, the touch aversion, the subjects we explored like a man possessed in our art and writing, over and over and over and over.

Someone should have noticed. Except no, who fucking would. When we look at it we can easily see why it was overlooked.

It's infuriating beyond words. It eats away at us from the inside because it would have been on us to get help and we couldn't even fucking do that. Hell, we tried, evidently, but turning to the wrong people or not saying the right fucking keywords meant it just got shut down, punished, overlooked or belittled.

It hurts and there's nothing that could have changed that even though something should have. It hurts, and it hurts, and it hurts.