To be going about your day
then experience crippling pain.
To be unable to do the things you normally
To plan your life around a pill schedule.
Always on the look out for side affects and worsening.
To be in a constant state of pain.
To only rate movements and positions on how barable the pain is.
To struggle to just get out of bed.
To know that'll you'll heal in time
and yet the lack of progress is discouraging
and makes you feel like a failure
To have to rely on others for simple things like getting out of bed.
To have given up on basic chores and self care
because it causes far too much agony to even bother.
because despite the two prescription painkillers you are on
all you can ever feel is agony.
To be mocked and rediculed for something you have no control of.
To feel so useless and hopeless.
Being unable to reach out for help
because "I'm not really disabled"
and "I would only be talking aid from those in actual need".
To be trapped in a failing body,
all the while you try to pretend that you are fine
as you drown under all the expectations you could normally meet.
To feel exhausted, humiliated, and like a burden.
Just a couple weeks you tell yourself
but never has it seemed so impossible.