#that works.

[strykezyx]

clingy much.

[daydream-alterhuman]

Hello! Since you mentioned also enjoying reading research about maladaptive daydreaming/immersive daydreaming and related concepts: we’re also definitely nerds about that whole genre of topic, so if you ever want to swap notes or chat about it, feel free to @ us or DM us anytime if you’d like

That's so sweet to reach out to exchange research notes and stuff! I'll go ahead and follow you guys so I don't miss updates if you post about it. Genuinely I would love to do that in the future. After university work has been sorted out. Anything I've found so far has been done during free time (... or when distraction hits).

[machine-guts]

i just realized asks were completely off for some reason. that's fixed now :]

[lovesickwaltz]

my new wol is soooo cutes i love her. you can lance if you want to you can leave your fears behind

[curiouscrux]

Special level of personal torment discovered!

Dreaming about hugging someone, somehow a complete and visceral sensory experience, then waking up.

[ji-woowoo]

I hate that my ego relies so heavily on others. I couldn't even begin to explain how it does, or why it does. But, it sucks. It's like I feel like... Hm. My whole self worth relies on whether or not I sense someone cares even the slightest about me. But, combine that with my dumb stupid hyperawareness to ever single social cue, imagined or otherwise, and it sends me spiraling. Like... How does one even begin to combat that? S'like I got that bit of Avery in me. Split to make bearable, or I'm just the only one who can fucking deal with it. Or, I dunno, introspect things where if I'm not adored by every single person who comes across me than what am I even worth?

I can sit here and preach nonstop about self worth and self love and being unapologetically myself. And I can scream about how hot I am and how great I am until I'm blue in the face, but when it comes down to it? Aesthetically, yeah, sure, I'm hot. And this persona I've created that is me is, theoretically, likeable. But, if I'm not made to feel like I'm special or... outstanding by others my ego plummets and I find myself hating how I am.

Not hate... Necessarily, but. Fuck, man. I don't know. Double-y so for those I'm close to. How do you go up to someone you care for and even begin to iterate those feelings to them without making them feel like you're asking way too much of them? Or make them feel like the way they show their love isn't Enough? What is enough, even? How much do I have to ask of others for me to just feel good in my own skin? When, undoubtably, the issue is inwards. It's not them not showing enough love, it's me just needing Too Much.

I need something from myself but I don't even have the mental capacity to deal with day to day life AND examine my own brain to figure out what it is that I fucking need? It's so frustrating.

Fuck man.

[jesterjamz]

heres who i got so far in "the tumblr games!!" as im calling it