#thatonechickwithglasses

[benadryl-nap]

i mean, i COULD go ahead and kill myself, but who would tend the garden and pet my cat

[chickenbrothels]

one of my favorite things ever is when thatonechickwithglasses comes online u go girl i miss u

[benadryl-nap]

Personal and slightly depressing probably

I often think about what I've made of my life. All I've really got to show accomplishment is a few medals from art shows. Besides that I'm pretty much talent less and offer nothing to society. I don't even know what I want to do with my life.

I'm too quiet and too anxiety ridden. I can't do things by myself and I'm constantly ridiculed and made fun of by my family for it. "Nothing's wrong with you.", "Stop acting like that.", "You're just being stupid. Straighten up.". I'm so sick and tired of constantly being put down. 

I don't remember what it's like to feel like I matter. I'm just so lonely. And I feel so unwanted. But I've learned to hide my unhappiness and hold it in. There's no need for me to let people know, so. I over think a lot and end up crying myself to sleep. It's usually the only time i can really cry. I'm often called heartless because i don't cry in front of people. I just can't let someone see me in that vulnerable of a state. 

God. I just wish I could have all of my questions answered. I want to know why nobody wants me. Why nobody stays. I just wish i was told why. I want to know what I'm doing wrong. What I'm doing to cause people to leave me. I need someone to actually care about me. 

I don't know what to fucking do.

[kyle-and-sarah]

You guys are so dang cute :3 How long have you been together?

a year and 5 months. thanks!!! ~Kyle